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Two is better than one
Boys like Girls ft Taylor Swift

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one


I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey"

Maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one

Naughty Naughty Christmas
Danger Danger

- Verse 1 -
I've been a naughty boy
I didn't get a toy
Santa Clause left nothin' underneath my tree
He knows that I've been bad
But bein' good just ain't my fad
So here's the thing to do if your just like me
Everybody, pull the shades, lock the door, like you did before

- Chorus -
And have a naughty naughty Christmas and dirty dirty new year
Naughty Naughty Christmas, feelin' peace and all the good cheer
If you haven't got someone you love, love someone your near
And have a naughty naughty Christmas this year

- Verse 2 -
It's too cold to go out today
We'll take a ride in an open slay
I'll do some kissin' underneith the misteltoe
My babies always been the given kind but when she tells me she's my present and she blows my mind
I can't wait but I'm gonna' unwrap her slow
Oh yeah we're gonna have a ball
And we'd like to wish you all...

- Chorus -
A naught naughty Christmas and a dirty dirty new year
Naughty Naughty Christmas, feelin' peace and all the good cheer
If you haven't got someone you love, love someone your near
And have a naughty naughty Christmas this year

- Verse 3 -
A naught naughty Christmas and a dirty dirty new year
Naughty Naughty Christmas, feelin' peace and all the good cheer
If you haven't got someone you love, love someone your near
And have a naughty naughty Christmas

- repeat -

Have a naughty naughty Christmas X2
This year.

Merry xmas everyone:)

And boxing day seems so much nicer than christmas itself :)

Never knew i needed you
Ne-Yo

For the way you changed my plans
For being the perfect distraction

For the way you took the idea that i had
of everything that i wanted to have
and made me see there was something missing...

For the ending of my first begin
(And) For the rare and unexpected friend

For the way you're something that I'd never choose
but at the same time something i don't wanna lose
and never wanna be without ever again...

Chorus:

You're the best thing I never knew I needed
when you appear i had no idea...

You're the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it's so clear i need you here, always...


My accidental happily (ever after)
The way you smile and how you comfort me (with your laughter)

I must admit you were not a part of my book
but now if you open it up and take a look
you're the beginning and the end of every chapter...

Chorus:

You're the best thing i never knew i needed
when you appear i had no idea...

You're the best thing i never knew i needed (that i needed)
so now it's so clear i need you here, always...


Who knew knew that I could be...
So unexpectedly...
Undeniably happy (yeah)
With you right here, right here next to me...

Chorus:

You're the best thing i never knew i needed
when you appear i had no idea...

You're the best thing i never knew i needed (that i needed)
so now it's so clear i need you here, always...

...Now it's so clear, I need you here always

4 days. staying at home. playing fifa on the consoles. not exercising.

Boredom. It better not continue or i'll seriously just. POOM, explode or something.

And it's probably the most boring x'mas week ever. There's no atmosphere at all. -.-

This just gotta be better.

The last tribute's for those i worked with. And this one is for 08s38.

It's been 2 whole years. Thanks for all that's always there when i need you people, despite the fact that i've never been there all the time for you guys. Apologies.

I think this VJ journey's been really a nice one. Like, we started off as strangers from different parts of the nation. I remembered the first day i walked into class and as i sat on the 2nd last row, i was thinking to myself. "WTH" Well that "wth" impression definitely changed as we grew closer. No longer strangers, no longer mere meet and go friends. People say that your best friends will be made during secondary school and maybe junior college, i say it may be the opposite. JC offered me an entirely different view of what life is like. That super big ego decided to retreat by a substantial amount. That selfish, authoritative collin has taken a step back. MCP? declined.

Well, staying in an all boys school may not have been the best of all choices. I'm so not going to quote statistics here, but girls definitely gain lots more from being in a girls school but it's definitely not the same for guys. Despotic? Probably. A common trait for guy school's guys.

Well, i've learned a lot. Cliques do exist everywhere, well one fortunate thing at least is that we still exist as a class. At least pretty much as one. (Or 2/3 if you wanna call it that way) I love how the class blended as one.

SDD was a closure that didn't really seemed like one. It was nonetheless the official one though, i think most of us won't just stop being friends till then.

To beloved BENZENE. I'm not going into the details but yes. bonded as 1. We quarreled, cold war-ed, pissed the shit out of each other, yet we enjoyed the happiest moments together as well. I have no idea why we even started with the " Let's rank your benzene member " "game". I don't believe in such ranking, any form of ranking proves nothing at the end of the day, it just segregates. At the end of the day. I just want us to stay as one. 1.

So yes.

Aloysius Koh. The buddy’s whos there always. Pessimistic. I think you are worse than kenrick. What will life be like if...Life was a little more optimistic. And i wonder. I’m quite sure you’ll do well in everything and be someone up there in no time. Just need to relax a bit and you should be fine. For this 2 years, thanks so much for all and everything. Being a good listening ear, someone who listens to my nonsense and rubbish. Well one point i have to apologise for though. I am not there all the time because i’m irritated by you sometimes, your pessimism just irritates me.:p SO YES! Change for the better. Life isn’t bleak. The only barrier you needa beat is the one up in your head. The one that says. Aloysius, you suck. Come on dude. Life’s a joy and how you enjoy it, how you manage to overcome it. It all depends on you. So yes. Thanks for everything and CHANGE:D

Glen Ang. GBADU. Well who actually started it. I’m so not going to boost your ego, but yes. You aren’t dumb. Definitely seen and proven. Perhaps the only person who’s more hardcore than me by like a million times, the amount of effort you put in to get your academic success is just shocking sometimes. But oh wells. Army’s next. Of all people, you irritated the shit out of me the most, the most insensitive annoying nonsense i’ve seen. What kind of rubbish are you ar. Seriously. Luckily i decided to make peace and yes. Everything became better. I know you are probably enjoying your life in Japan now. I’ve got nothing much to say about you. Seriously. Be more sensitive sometimes :D And yes, enjoy your life and enjoy the time left before army :s

Jasmine Teo. The one that doesn’t get past the thermal detector. high radioACTIVITY. You are one of the most hyperactive person around but you always manage to chill and keep your cool when it’s supposed to be serious. Thanks for being such a wonderful CT rep.:) And thanks for all the advice and everything. Like what you said. The female version of Aloysius.:) Stay high, stay cool and be less emotional at times.:)

Tan Jie Ying. I really don’t know what to say. Can you be less blur? :D HAHAHAHA. Oh wells, i think of the 6 of us, i definitely talk the least to you. Hmm. Watch less dramas and go out more:D And hopefully you’ll enjoy the 8 months break yea? I realised the guy’s won’t have this privilege at all. Like doing whatever you want and stuff. And maybe go learn driving or something. Thanks for being there when we need you and smile more!

Tings. I have too much to say that i’m just beyond words:) Thanks for being there always and yeaps. Ok i really don’t know what to say. You’re definitely one of the closest i’m to and yes. Totally predictable. :) Thanks for everything and i’ll definitely miss the times we all went crazy ( though you went crazier than i did :D ) smiles:)

And those i didn’t manage to thank, like bong, jacq, suni and the rest. Thanks for making it such a wonderful journey and all the best for the future.:) Stay in contact:)

I have no idea what kind of response this post will generate but one thing for sure: I appreciate all those that played an integral part in my life.

So yes. Here it goes.

Let's start with council. It's been really full of ups and downs. Well frankly it started on day 1, orientation. I was really really amazed by everything that was being organised. I still remember myself saying that there is no way i'll ever join council. No way will it be in my priority list. Well the urge to join a sport was really killing me, and i was really certain i’ll never do something that has to deal with the idea of being a student leader. I guess i was proven wrong. It was one of the last choices i had because i knew that it was a backing. At the very most, if i couldn’t find something i like, that will the last choice. I remembered both martin and terence joining ct council and yea, i did give ct council a try. However, at the end of it i chose the crazier of the two. STUDENTS COUNCIL.

Everything feels so long ago, like how we started and stuff like that, but the irony is this: Investiture felt so yesterday. Orientation 2. Nom’s night. Elects Camp. NUS children’s ward visit. Intra-council day. Farewell Assembly. Open House. Senior Dinner and Dance. Orientation 09. Nom’s Camp. Music Fest. Outvest.

It didn’t end there. It definitely didn’t end there.

Redshirting. The most important event in the entire journey.

What matters most isn’t the events itself but the people who was with me all this while. I’m sorry for being insensitive, i’m sorry for being too stubborn. Thanks to all those who believed in me, for those who stood by me all the while. Some friends came by and left, while the few of you people stood by my side always. Thanks once again.

Kenrick Chin. You psychotic manipulative bitch. Psychotic for being by my side and allow me to vent my anger and being receptive to all the nonsense i did. Manipulative for being such a manipulative figure in my life. You turned my life topsy turvy. You created hell. Wth man. And the last one is self explanatory. B-I-A-T-C-H. You know what it means better than i do my friend.:D But somehow you were by my side all this while, you knocked sense into me whenever i was down, you are always there to be my good listening ear. Thanks for all the k-pop madness( though i think i caused the craze with all the random blasting of speakers in the council room ) and the psychotic GAGA fever. One thing for you though. Forgive and forget. You know what i mean. :)

Stacy Kayla Sng. The one and only one( other than me ) who gives the wtf face all the time. Like what Kat said last night before you left. Smile more princess kayla. Dagger eyes will just scare all the guys away. HAHAHA. And your 5 inch heels that scares all the guys away (except for me :D) Ok down to serious business. Thanks for being such an understanding classmate and council mate. Thanks for the care and concern all the time. And by the time you see this, you’ll probably be done with your 1/2 month tour in europe!

Geraldine Quek. How dare you call me a cat. GOLDFISH! :D You and your straightforwardness owns everyone flat. Guess what. Till date, i have no idea why you can get away with all of this. Immunity against all strikes eh. Thanks for being there for me all the time ( though you’ll kill me sometimes when i disappoint:x ) and thanks for all your efforts. Working with you in RECO and SDD was just simply a pleasure. Stay cool eh! But remember. Be less straightforward sometimes. Not everyone can take it :)

Victoria Faith Neoh. The one who’s always predictable. Thanks for being a good listening ear as well and a cool working partner. You made me understand loads of stuff especially these couple of months, you made me feel as if i wasn’t alone. Frankly speaking, we do think the same way sometimes. Yeaps. I guess just follow your heart and do what you think is the best. Well decisions are hard to make but sometimes, you need to make the decision that goes with what you truly believe in. Thanks once again :)

Hannah Rose Murphy. Forever suanning me. One thing i must learn from you though is that always smile. Always. I always wonder how on earth are you able to do that. Like seriously. How can you put on that smile in front of someone you can’t stand. Hmm. Oh wells. Perhaps the person with the highest eq around, you are definitely one person to look up to. ( In terms of eq that is, not h_____ :X) Stay cool!

And two other people.

who left this tiny island.

Katharine Khorazon. Dragon lady. I think you’re one of the most aggressive woman around. However, it’s your aggressiveness that makes you special. Thanks for being one of the most committed and dedicated person around, in whatever you do. Be it those redshirting season ( i missed those times, really. ), be it nom’s camp, be it the mugging period. You are always dedicated. We try to look at things at a larger picture. We put in our 110% in everything. And yes. You’ll be dearly missed. Like seriously. Don’t miss us too much though:D And enjoy your spa and everything. It’ll be 3 mths of enjoyment before we see you back here again!:D

Thomas Lim. The ever irritating “HAHAHAHAHHA! -points at you and laugh like a 90 pointer idiot-” I won’t forget you that’s for sure. And yes frankly speaking, it doesn’t feel as if you left. :x Anyway, all the best for your xmas present! Hoping to hear good news from you as well! And yes. We’ll see you in KL soon so yea. We have to enjoy that period ( before i get into the army)

I know the long list goes on. Special mention to people like xiaowei, nicholas, pengrui, leon and those that i’ve worked with all this while. Thanks for being there always. Even though it’s just mere 2 years, you people played a indispensable role in this torpsy turvy 2 years.

I have so much to say and this is merely just so little that i’ve said. I miss everyone. I miss council. 2 years just went by just like this. At the end of the day, 1+0 will not become 0 because you made a difference in others life. It may not be penned down anywhere, but at the end of the day you know something for sure. You made a difference.

Thanks everyone.

Prom's over. The past, the present, the future. Probably the only event that captures all those moments that remind me of the long lost past, a representative outlook of the present and the impending future. I can't exactly say that it was what i expected, at least it wasn't as bad as i would expect.

The good and bad happened. One thing for sure, at least i learned something.

It's gonna be a long journey ahead, hang on guys. Thanks VJC.

it made me understand where you really stand.

暗示－锺嘉欣

"I LOVE YOU CAUSE I'M A FREE BITCH BABY."

Right. Just those 9 words to sum up my feelings. It's 2 months of pure slacking and resting ( and training up as well ) but i guess i'll simply love it:D

One thing for sure. I need to get some things done :)

i'm not going to waste this 2 months.

Need you now - Lady Antebellum

Picture perfect memories,
Scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, I can’t fight it any more.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It’s a quarter after one, I’m all alone and I need you now.
Said I wouldn’t call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don’t know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Another shot of whiskey, can’t stop looking at the door.
Wishing you’d come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It’s a quarter after one, I’m a little drunk,
And I need you now.
Said I wouldn’t call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don’t know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Yes I’d rather hurt than feel nothing at all.
It’s a quarter after one, I’m all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn’t call but I’m a little drunk and I need you now.
And I don’t know how I can do without, I just need you now.
I just need you now.
Oh baby I need you now.

You learn from your mistakes and move on. One thing for sure, you get better at it. Not worse at it.
Not giving up till the end :)

너라서 사랑해-채동하

한껏 다 주고 싶은데
빈 손이 미안해져
맘껏 널 보고 싶은데
닿을까 불안해져
널향한 이런 내맘 사랑이라는
두글자로 모자라
나에게 그리움을 가르친 사람

그게 너라서 난 너라서
내게 얼마나 고마운지
아프게 하지마 힘들게 하지마
그래도 니가 좋아
하필 너인지 왜 너인지
내게 묻지말아줘
애태워도 울게해도
그냥 너라서 사랑해

하루 왠 종일 그려도
지겹지 않은 사람
고된 기다림 조차도 즐겁게 하는 사람
너만을 위한 내맘 바보 같다고
놀려되도 괜찮아
내 생에 다신 없을 빛나는 사람

그게 너라서 난 너라서
내게 얼마나 고마운지
아프게 하지마 힘들게 하지마
그래도 니가 좋아
하필 너인지 왜 너인지
내게 묻지말아줘
애태워도 울게해도
그냥 너라서 사랑해

누구도 오지 못하게
가슴에 빈틈 없도록
가득 들어찬 사랑

너라서 너라서 내게 얼마나 다행인지
니가 아니라면 다른사람이면
이토록 사랑할까

너의 가슴에 또 기억에
영원토록 남겨질 단 한사람 단 한사람
그게 너라서 감사해

It's.. ALMOST OVER. :D
Reality hasn't really sunk in i suppose but it definitely will in no time :)
After all this 2 years. Finally.

Time to take a serious break now:)

it's all the way for everything now.

THIS IS IT.

Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right
Just beat it, beat it
Just beat it, beat it
Just beat it, beat it
Just beat it, beat it

Billie Jean is not my lover (she is just a girl)
Billie Jean is not my lover (she is just a girl)
Billie Jean is not my lover (she is just a girl)
Billie Jean is not my lover (she is just a girl)

Alright. BANG BANG BANG :D

The greatest barrier ahead is nothing more than the one up in your head.

Move on.

What can we take on trust
in this uncertain life? Happiness, greatness,
pride - nothing is secure, nothing keeps.
~Euripides, Hecuba

i realised. two different situations. but probably. the same feelings afterall.

maybe, that's what mattered most this while.

you left me confused.

Just keep going.

Only the determined ones get rewarded.

i ask myself why my world's crumbling.

why.

控制得了情绪的人也许活得更开心。被情绪控制的人最终还是感到寂寞，有时还感到无助。

我需要学习如何分辨是非， 懂得如何面对自己。

被困在这迷你世界里，有时也让我发觉到错觉也会影响我的心情。

网络，部落阁，清谈室都有个共同之处： 无须流露真正的心情。

也许只有这样，每个人都会得到同样的待遇。也许这样才能让人们知道生活也能够那么轻松，自在。想发言就发言，想把对方臭骂一吨也无须害怕后果不堪设想。

少了情绪，人们的思想也变得稍微简单。

还记得小时候，当我们还未了解情绪与感受这两个词义时，生活还是那么丰富。

情绪与感受，你们为何带给我痛苦与悲伤？

TCC overnight, walking zombie, korean craze.

Panic attacks, GAGA and her POKERFACE.

It's a break for now at least.

What's done is done. What matters now is to learn and move on.

I'll be back stronger than before.

It's not time to just seat around, neither is it time to make a conclusion yet.

One thing for sure, i need to do something meanwhile.

Hang on everyone. I hate to say this but, we are still nowhere near the end.

Fret not cause everything will pay off. Really.

All the best.

TTL.

You know you are trying, but sometimes that's not enough.
People see you trying, but guess what. It's not enough.
You tell yourself not to stop. I'm sorry to say this. It's not enough.

Not enough.
Even the best fall down one day. What makes you think you never do?
Just that people know when to fall. And you chose to fall at this crucial juncture.

At the end of the day, you know who knows it best.
Again, what's the point. So what if you know it best. Like what people always say, you do things for people to see. Not for yourself to know.
Maybe sometimes, life isn't fair. Oh wait. Life has never been fair.

If it was, i wouldn't have been that lucky for that first 16 years of my life.
If it was, i wouldn't have gotten almost everything i wanted for the first 16 years of my life.

Seems like everything's changing. Everything is.

The only thing that isn't. Is fear itself.

Now we know what's the true heartbreaker.

Sometimes, you just need to sit down and think through everything.

You lose and gain something all the time, it's just how you perceive it.
Control your feelings, not the other way around.

It's gonna be another milestone ahead.

Take it on.

Remedy

I can see you killing like a predator

I've been hurt before

Destruction screws me now and forever

But I will not be flawed

Coz what i do is sacrifice

And all I see is lies

No more poison

Killing my emotion

I will not be frozen

Studying is my remedy, remedy, oh

Stop stop preying

Coz I'm not not playing

I'm not frozen

Studying is my remedy, remedy, oh

Move while you're watching me

Kill all the enemy

I've got a remedy

Oh, oh-oh, oh-oh

Move while you're watching me

Kill all the enemy

Here is my remedy

Oh, oh-oh, oh-oh

And maybe this does work.

Sacrifice still exists everywhere, and everywhere the elect of each generation suffers for the salvation of the rest.

I want my wings to fly and soar.

For the first time, dirty drains saved 3 lives.

Being who i am.

Some things are not meant to be brought up.

Some things are not meant to be said.

Some things are not meant to be discussed.

Some things are not meant to end up that way.

Some things are not meant to be socially accepted.

Some things are not meant to be explainable.

Some things are not meant to be known.

But when things do change and things get brought up. Face it.

It's just your luck. Your destiny. Your own screwed up fate.

Let things go the way they do.

Let things be what it should be.

And you never know. Even till then. Flaw exists... everywhere.

Perhaps, it's better to avoid it in the first place.

Perhaps, it's better to keep things to yourself.

Perhaps, it's better not to show.

Perhaps, and maybe. Just perhaps.

Time to reflect on all the wrongdoings.

Desperate.

Even miracles take a little time.

Reading helps. Even reading the blogs of others.
I can't waste anymore time. Focus and strive.
Last chance to make a mark.

10 years down the road, I'll look back and realise nothing will be achieved without the effort i'm putting in now.

REGRETS? no way.

I tell myself things will change. And even if things don't change, I'll take it as it is and let destiny lead me on.

Time hides no truth.

98 days.

Life after people.
One thing to be certain, life will continue even after human race die out.

Alternative D-day ending.

Feeling it somehow.

This entire week has been totally magical and weird at the same time.

Gigantic alligators swimming in dams, being warped into different countries by fairies that seemed to possess the ability to do expecto petronas, living in a city of possibilities, studying in a foreign place as a foreign student.

This week is just magical. Let the dreams continue.

I need to relieve some tension.

The tough gets going...

Leave me there in that corner and let me be. I'll be ok once i sort out everything.
Sleep does more harm than good.

I need time to recover. I need the space to breathe.
Still finding that solution.

Back after a long while. It's pretty cool to realise that my results are worse than before. Shall not rant about it now.

Let's talk about.... Senior Dinner and Dance. I can't wait to see how the response will be. And the venue's at Fullerton hotel, at a pricey 95 bucks though.

Theme: Royale.
Well after knowing the theme, i think checking the internet will give you a better idea of what royale... suggests.

Many people is asking what exactly does Royale mean so.

Go to http://google.com
Type Royale.
Click search.

Let's see.
1. Download Royale theme for Windows XP.
2.Casino Royale

And the list goes on.

http://akimages.crossmediaservices.com/dyn_li/200.0.88.0/Retailers/CanadianTire/080222ENG_DE309_03_1_4a.JPG

Maybe. This.

ROYALE. Your interpretation.

Double kill.

2 more to go. And wipe out the bad memories.

Maybe, tests are meant to demoralise.

It happened too many times i choose to believe CT2s exist in my nightmares.

2 more. If that helps. And everyone hang on.

i just need a little breakthrough.

I need it. now.

back soon.

HEYOS.

CHEM YOU SUCK!

suck

suck.

SUCK.

SUCKK.

SUCCKKK.

asshole.

screw off you bloody chem.

shaln't waste my time on you. useless fool.

GET OUT OF MY LIFE.

econs here i come :D

In life, you need to factor in entertainment and rest.

I'm sorry to conclude i lack both. Neither entertainment nor rest.

I don't wish to be a hero. I don't wish to leave a legend behind. All i want is to achieve my dreams and that's it. There's no need for fame and glory.

I'm breaking down both emotionally and physically. Tear me apart if you wish because i know this will never end. Trample on me if you think it gets you higher. Stab me till i bleed no more.

But at the end of the day, i know i'll grow stronger. Or at least i hope i will. I will live on to prove all others wrong. And again, if you ever ask me whether i choose to be smart or hardworking, i'll choose the latter.

I'm sorry i've lost my senses these days but i'll get it back.

I just need self believe and that's all that is needed.

And hopefully i don't get a heart attack from all these stressors.

Mad World

Adam Lambert

All around are me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrows
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

(Chorus)

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which in dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very,
Mad world, Mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday, happy birthday
And they feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

[Chorus]

And I find it kind of funny,
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I fine it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very
Mad world, Mad world
Mad world, Mad world

I'm really living in this mad mad world.

Nuff said.

Noise inducing headaches.

Stop it. Seriously.

Everything's behind you
But the whole place signs besides you
Living in every moment
Have I wasted all your time

Michael Jackson's dead.

95 new h1n1 cases.

I realised everything's getting tougher. Probably even the fight against viruses and bacteria and all other pathogens. It's a real time battle against these minuscule microscopic living/non-living organism.

And i doubt i'll be able to survive these nonsense somehow.

Jealousy kills. And that becomes so obvious now i can't seem to mask it.

Holiday's aint extended, at least the exams were.

And i just realised it's youth day on 6th july.

What a youth day trying to mug for exams.

Back to... mugging. And life goes on.

PS: I don't have cancer.

I have no idea what to do now. Let the game play on since there's no way back. :)

Hopefully all players end up winning somehow. LOL.

I'm going mad.

And it's still some distance away from that goal.

Maybe i'm better off, doing something like... selling ice cream down the street.

Sanity and studying don't go together.

I'm back to square 1.

Plain tired. And thanks to those jokers in Macs just now trying to stage a show, i had to finish up the mindmap at home -.-

Amazing race tmr? 830am:) I hope i'll be on time. LOL. :X

and please. 1 more week of holidays. All considerations will be greatly appreciated.

REVENGE OF THE FALLEN :D

and i wonder what that means at the end of the day.

This is how it works
You're young until you're not
You love until you don't
You try until you can't
You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath

I'm sure everyone's getting panicky over CT2s now. The thing is, determination gets you everywhere. Hang on everyone.

Probably i care more than anyone do because i realise i do care. Quite a lot.

Time is running out. But who cares. I need to blog.
Revising at home is never efficient. NEVER. And that's probably why kenrick and vic are happily mugging their night out at the airport. I can never do that :)

It's probably the last break left before the major As, gosh. Yes.

i NEED sleep. Probably that's why i have been waking up only to realise the sun's on top of me. :D
I've been having this weird craving for food though most of the time it's just mere cravings to LOOK and not consume them.

Bye fries, chips and everything deemed to be detrimental to my health. :D

Medical checkup tomorrow. Pes _? You fill it up for me.

It's weird to realise that i do want to know more. Though it may not be the best thing to do... but who cares. Seriously. :)

Imagine being trapped in a crystal ball.
Imagine the wheels of the car being used as car seats while the steering wheel's being used as tires instead.
I wonder how it feels like having to see the world in a totally different perspective.

It's weird to think about this at this late hour, but who cares.

Geek-fied.

Everything seemed like a dream.

What Tattoo should you have?

Your Result: Words

You're very picky about what you would have. Your favorite scripture, the name of your child or parent, or something along those lines fits you best. Whatever line you choose, everyone will know it is very close to your heart.

Choose to believe in what you really do and not follow the status quo... if need be.

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through all the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
Im just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

So what's next in line ?

Finally feeling better after getting my chillout session.
I just required a break and i got one. :)

Again, good things never lasts.
Back to that old and ironclad routine.


For some reason i cannot explain.
Maybe i really can't.

regrets. too many to count.

i just want to know what's upcoming.
it's getting exasperating yet fascinating at the same time.

i realise. i lost control of everything. my thoughts, my feelings. everything.

i need a chillout session. urgently.

why?

What is your inner self?


Your Result: A Smokelike Person

You tend to hide you emotions. You are at a very low point in life. You almost seem to not want to go on anymore. Fade a way into smoke not exist. You feel alone in life. You feel as if no body could ever understand you. But there is only one thing that clings you to life. You want to belong. But you dont want to change. You want to be around people you want to have a reason to go on. You are sometimes envious of other people's seemingly perfect lives. If you want to have a seemingly perfect life, then you should start hanging around warm sunlike people, or friendly earthlike people, or tell your problems to an quiet listener moon person. And you always have a speck of hope inside of you. Even if you feel all hope is lost, hope is hard to fully kill. so nurture and try to see life in different eyes, and maybe it'll be a brighter world.

And i wonder why.

There's no point doing things we don't like.

I'm not a fan of SJ but yea.

Super Junior - It's You

Sit down, talk about it and think through what you had experienced.

Maybe what everyone said was right. Too naive, too insensitive.
Well. The most probable reason for my downfall.

When love is just another feeling people think they understand.
When hate is just another expression people use to show displeasure.
When sorrow is just another feeling they use casually to gain sympathy.
When lies is just another way to live through life.

Tell me what makes me different from others.
Tell me what makes the world different from me.
Tell me why the days never seemed any better.
Tell me why.

Searching for an answer.

I'm trying to believe there's still a reason for my existence.
I'm trying to believe there's still a reason for me to live my life to the fullest.
365 days.
i realised, things didn't change for the better.
I didn't know what were the reason for all the actions.


Like i said before. I don't know what's wrong.
And i'm glad you people realised i am just like any other friend of yours.
One who's insecure... at times.

The greatest fear is not rejection itself.
But the fear of what comes after rejection.

LOVE. Decode it.

No Boundaries
American Idol 8 Finale Coronation Song

Ohh
Seconds hours so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment lasts forever
When you feel you've lost your way
What if my chances were already gone
I started believing that I could be wrong
But you gave me one good reason
To fight and never walk away
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

I fought to the limit you stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets
Don't know where the future's headed
Nothing's gonna bring me down
Jumped every bridge I've run every line
I risk being safe, I always knew why
I always knew why
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule cause there's nothing between you and your dreams

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up everything
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
No boundaries
Yeah, there are no boundaries



Definitely, boundaries are set to restrict us from going off course.
However, the true fact is: Boundaries just prevents you from exploring your greatest dreams.

With days, i found a true meaning in what i call LIFE.
It's more than before. I hope it's finally a true understanding.

The irony is this. The closer we get, more conflict arises.
In the end, everyone got hurt. Somehow or another.

It also takes time for us to realise what lies ahead, whether such conflicts are necessary in the first place, whether such lines have to drawn so clearly.

A pact of peace and concord.

Things will get better.

I finally realised what made me really pissed off all this while, everything has an answer now.
Maybe that was just a mere catalyst but its sufficient to cause such hostility.
Anger, Disappointment. Probably 2 words can sum it all up.

Probably that's why i refuse to believe in something called platonic love.
Maybe nothing really matters.

Till the day i gain the trust of the people around, i will walk the lonely roads myself.

Someone answer me. What's true friends?

Holidays are here. Think about it. 1/2 a year more to the end of this journey.

I realised i will miss everyone around me. Everyone. Even those that never seemed significant to me. A plethora of feelings, completed with those vivid images. Stimulation of thoughts.

Maybe. Just waiting.

When love story meets viva la vida.
Enjoy.

Full day... Full day... Full day.
And somehow i didn't really want it to be on.

Everything's over. Officially.

Oh Wells.

Good Person- T-Ara

I realised, at the very end of the day... I'll be walking this path all by myself.

It's great to see the juniors learn from all their mistakes and constantly putting in effort to improve. It doesn't matter what the rest of the Victorian population think, the most important thing is to believe that you have put in your best. It's most important to enjoy the process than to achieve everything you expected to do so right from the start.

Life's never perfect, look forward and move on.

I give up. That's it and it's the end of it.
Back to the lonely world of mine and probably that suits me more.
I'm worth it only when you care, and that applies to everyone.

It's hard to believe that at the end of the day, i have no idea what i really want.
It's just as if everything just came and left.
In just a second.

Perhaps, it's better to leave afterall. Perhaps, it's better to leave it as what it is. Perhaps, it's better if i stop for a moment and realise what i really have.

And it's important to sit down and really find out who really cares and who don't. People who come and go, or people who are just there waiting for you to realise that they truely care.

True friends stay by your side always. Friends aren't those that come and go whenever they feel like it. And it's stupid to realise that sometimes, you are being made used by them without even feeling anything.

Unconditional? Maybe i can't.
Maybe those words that come from you ain't true.
I'll be seeking for an answer.

It's probably time to think about what we want in life. To have those who care for you, or to have those who may come to you one day and say that you ain't the one in their life. Walk the roads and discover what it feels like to be alone. Probably that will make more sense than anything else. And always keep a lookout for those who are on our side, before it's too late when they leave. Love, a one time affair.

Thanks for everything.

No coach, no hall, no star players.

What we just have is character. And probably the spirit of excellence.

I remember the very day Lennart asked me whether i wanted to join volleyball and the thing that came to my mind was: What on earth is he thinking. For some reason or another, i said yes. Somehow.

I remembered how it felt like at that point of time. Always being sidelined during trainings and what i could probably do was to just practise by myself or probably pick up balls. I must admit that was probably one of the things i never really expected, i felt like a fool who's trying too hard to blend in.

6 months has passed and it seemed like everything's just gone without me realising it. I guess it's really how much everyone put in that got us to where we are now. A team of 15 VJVB players. No giraffes, no elephants but a team of determined souls set to prove everyone wrong. We did it.
We grew as a team, we moved together as a team, we soared as a team.

Thanks everyone for putting in so much effort to make this an experience of a lifetime, i'm really sorry i couldn't pick up the sport in time to be able to play as a true substitute. Thanks for giving me the guidiance all the time, thanks for taking me seriously all the time.

VJVB. Nil sine labore.

Strong man vs. weak man.
We just had to decide what we were. Well, the team fought hard and yes we made history.

26-24 , 22-25 , 25-15.

Probably the most important scores ever. All the best for tomorrow.

100th post.

You'll never know how priviledged you are till the day you lose it. And i guess it's true.
That's a fact in life many fail to realise.

And sometimes i take things for granted. Thinking they'll be here all the time. I have no idea what made me realise how fortunate i am compared to others but i guess that made me view life in a different light. Everyone's different and that's what diversity is all about.

I realise i shouldn't take everything for granted and i shouldn't take everyone for granted. People change and so will all forms of relationship.

And finally, my 100th post. Typing with my wounded hand. Cool.

i closed my eyes and told myself things will change, it ended up changing for the worse.
i opened my eyes and told myself to look at things change, i ended up with a broken heart.

Music does prove everything in my life.

Let the lyrics do the talking. Let the words make sense to all. And maybe. Make everyone realise that not everything goes their way.

To those heartbroken people out there.

내 머리가 나빠서 - SS501

Translation

Because I am a fool
The only thing I think about is you
But I know that you are thinking about somebody else
And you probably don’t even know my heart

I probably don’t exist in your daily life
And I’m sure you have no thoughts of me
But for me, I spend my days thinking about you
And my tears still fall

Just looking at your retreating figure
Is happiness to me
Even if you don’t know my feelings
Even if you simply brush me aside

In those days when I desperately want to see you
Those days that are so hard to bear
My mouth wordlessly repeats “I love you”
And all alone I cry for you again
And all alone I’m missing you
Baby I love you
I’m waiting for you

I probably don’t exist in your daily life
And I’m sure you have no memories of me
But for me, I spend my days thinking about you
And create my own memories

For me
Love is a beautiful scar
Even when I see your beautiful smile
I cannot smile with you

In those days when all I think about is you
Those days when my heart is cold and sad
My mouth wordlessly repeats “I want to see you”
And all alone I cry for you again
And all alone I’m missing you
Baby I love you
I’m waiting for you

Bye bye never say good bye
Even though I can never have you
I need you
I can’t say a word, I want you
I plead and again I plead

In those days when I desperately want to see you
Those days that are so hard to bear
My mouth wordlessly repeats “I love you”
And all alone I cry for you again

In those days when all I think about is you
Those days when my heart is cold and sad
My mouth wordlessly repeats “I want to see you”
And all alone I cry for you again
And all alone I’m missing you
Baby I love you
I’m waiting for you

Walking down the streets at night does make me feel different.
Well, life is not just as simple as it is. It's the experience and people that make a difference to the way you view life.

Well, sitting at the bus stop, pausing for a moment and looking at the cars pass. Walking down a busy street and realise you are oblivious to everything around you. Sitting in a cinema and sleeping through the movie. Maybe, that just show how tired some people are. Tired of life, tired of living.

Maybe. Just tired of everything around us. Everything.

Flaws.

Maybe it's just part of everyone of us. It's just how much it affects our lives. And maybe those around us.

Flaws.

Maybe i'm just oblivious to all of them.

Flaws.
Maybe, my downfall.

It's just how amazing to see how paradoxical life can be. I feel as if life betrayed me. Or probably just toying with my feelings.
Well. Confused over the most stupid things in life.
Maybe it's just me.

When i realised how people can change lives as much as lives can change people.

2,3,4,5,6,7,8...

Everything else but 1.

Thanks 25ths.

I dreamed a dream.

Maybe i really did. It's been 5 years in this path.
Sweat, tears and blood.
I have no regrets.

Well. It's a microscopic view of what life is like. I still remember the days we were asked to stand at attention, listening to my DM questioning our commitment. That was the first time i took up something and that is probably the start of a whole new journey.

2005-2009 Student leader.

Well. I must say that this journey is truly enriching for everyone. And i really benefitted from it tremendously. I still remember the days i held a high position and could almost everything i wanted. All decisions were made by me. I was practically the luckiest student on earth, everything seemed to go my way.

VJ wasn't the same anymore. Seniors treated us like we were total rubbish. "RUBBISH", "BLOODY HELL" well those words did hurt. I questioned myself. Am i that sucky? Are the 25th elects that hopeless. The seniors thought so. Well. Individuals.

1 year has passed before us even realising it. I realised, things aren't the same anymore. We are a batch that went through the toughest of matters, braved through the darkest of storms, accepted the criticisms and hoped for the best for the future. We did it. Maybe just the 20 odd of us, but we did it.

True friendships are made. True bonds. True feelings.

The exact reason i teared 1 year ago, that's my greatest regrets. Yet i believe that's what make me realise, this is the exact way i should view life.

Position compromises on true friends. The same thing applies for all others in life. You can't get the best of both worlds. Maybe having a flawed leader is what we need to see us trying to push ourselves to the top, to prove the structural flaws in an executive committee if held by incompetent leaders. Thanks so much for impeding change, thanks so much for making me realise i can make a difference at ground level. Most importantly, i realised that was how people felt about me in the past. A president but not a good leader. I've grown to realise that.

It's pretty intriguing to see how my life took a complete turn for the past year. But the same principle lies with me putting in my best in everything. Thanks to all those who stood by me all this while. Thanks to those who comforted me in the times of trouble. Thanks to those who never left me lying around when i looked as if i was crumbling.

Like i said before. It's those who put in their 100% who motivated me to stay on. To hang on to a not so perfect institution.

Special thanks to Stacy, my wonderful classmate and council mate. If you haven't realised, you are the one who motivates me the most, and it hurts to see you breakdown. Thanks for being there to motivate and guess what, without you, i guess my journey would have been a totally different one. I love your dagger eyes!

Special thanks to Lennart, my 8 year buddy. Despite the fact that you love to use explicits like free, well we know that's truly you. Thanks for being irritating and sometimes even badmouthing me ( i know that ), BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY, yea i know you care and yeaps. Stay cool and think positive.

Special thanks to Sarah, thanks for being a really really great friend. You are like one of those i can really confide in. I know you'll be there even in the times of trouble and your motivation in perfecting everything you do is simply amazing. Frankly, i haven't seen someone with your determination before. Thanks for making my life different. Besties always.

Special thanks to Katharine, guess what. The honour goes to you. I guess you are one of the only exco that don't believe in position. You believe in having friends, and you know that position kills and you know you care the most for people. I'm so sorry for making your life difficult, complaining about almost everything i could. Thanks for staying a strong pillar in council, never falling and supporting the council all the time.

Special thanks to Kenrick, my ever cool studying buddy. You know you are seriously the biggest joke on earth,joking :P (i know you so wanna kill me now) Thanks for being there all the time and being my best gossip buddy. I'm sorry for making you wait for my trainings to end for dinner! Thanks for being a super hardworking council, your perseverance really motivated me to move on with life.

Special thanks to Geraldine, the all time goldfish.:D Guess what, seeing you in the council room does brighten my day. The queen of complaints, but you are a perfectionist. Totally. I can see you complaining about everything on earth, but the fact is: That's because you really care. Thanks for staying a uber cool canvassing IC, i bet no one can do a better job than you. Jimmy says well done :X

Special thanks to Leon, for being the most happy-go-lucky friend. Thanks so much for being there when we need you, thanks for making it seem as if nothing is impossible. Stay happy and keep improving on your jokes :) All the best to your band too, do well for musicfest :D

Special thanks to Le-anne, my beloved SDD I/C. It’s really great working with you all this while, i feel as if it’s the best experience of my life handling such a major event throughout. Despite the fact that you do cry alot ( it’s a fact don’t deny it ), it’s great to see that you aren’t giving up at all. You did many things behind the scenes and we know it, thanks for being a great friend all this while. Go Blue and Star:)
Special thanks to Xiao Wei, the admirable vice Reco head. I’m really awed by how you can be so tolerating towards a certain someone, it’s really amazing to see how people can have such high tolerance levels. Thanks for putting your all in Reco and I think this is the best journey in my life because you made a difference in Reco. Don’t give up when the going gets tough! We’re all behind you for Musicfest! Overall champion yea?

Special thanks to Hannah, for being such a smurf in council. You are one of those with the most experience around, and the one that puts in your all and believe that the end of the journey is success. Well, we were once up there so i guess you learned alot as well, i believe you’ll make a great leader one day :)

Special thanks to Victoria, the one that is totally predictable. You are one of the best creators of cluedo i’m sure, and you really put in your very best to make everything perfect. It’s really a pleasure to have a friend like you and like what i always like to say. DON’T GIVE UP! You possess great potential, you just need to affirm yourself once in a while. Believe in yourself. I’m sure you’ll do well in life.

Special thanks to Nicholas. What do i have to say to you. You have the brains, the attitude, the character. A true leader indeed. I must admit i don’t really like you at the start of the journey because i felt that you were like a total block. But well, time makes a difference. You really prove to be the best councillor in our batch. One that is so amazing, one that puts in his best in everything. I really thanks you for everything. 8 As!

Special thanks to Michelle, for being one of the greatest girl out there. Despite your tremendous workload, you had to do so much for council. I really hope you do well for ct council, but don’t forget us? All the best for your JC journey.

Special thanks to Peng Rui, the loudest and most confident redshirt out there. You never worry about how people perceive you. You only believe that by giving your best, you’ll learn and grow, which i truly think you did. Thanks for being a great buddy, keep improving on your GP. I’m sure you’ll get an A at the end of the day. :)

Special thanks to Diana, for being a really great leader. Despite the fact that you have outside commitments, i can see that you do have your own code of conduct and your own way of doing things, and most importantly: A vision. Thanks for being a great Vice president, all the best for everything ahead.

Last but not the least, special thanks to Jerald, the Mr Nice. Well, what else to say. The president. The one who led. The one who allowed us to enjoy the 25th journey. Thanks so much.

The list is non exhaustive, there are just too many people to thank. 25ths, thanks for allowing me to enjoy this once in a lifetime experience and enriching my life totally. I really appreciated everything...

The term ended... but let this fire burn in our hearts.

3 Months.

All the best to VJ Vball tmr. And yea. all the best to invest ad-hoc too.

It's been a busy week but i guess this will be my weekly routine for at least a couple of weeks, maybe even an entire year.

School's revitalising my life this year. Everyday's a new chapter in life, everyday's a new jigsaw piece to piece up my life. I enjoy the fun and joy. A new purpose in everything.

16pf kinda said something about me. I'm definitely more aware of what are my flaws and my strengths, i'll work towards my goals but at the same time do what i think is right.

Yes. 1 final boost.

People condemn the media for the negative influence. 

Credible sources from media? Not always.

We watch dramas and think that's another dramatised scenario. Perfect couples? Complicating love triangle?

Maybe that's life. 

It's pretty weird how life works. There's no point rushing. If it work out, then good for you. If it doesn't, don't take it too seriously. Give yourself some time and think about it. Is that what you want?

I sound like some adviser but oh wells, i hope that's genuine advice. 

If someone asks you whether your life's like a poem, a song or a movie, what will your reply be.

For me, it's definitely a song.

If i can ever describe my life in a couple of verses, i'll be more than glad to do so.

The thing is. I can't.

Greg anderson, the author of the 22 Non-negotiable laws of Wellness once said, "When we are motivated by goals that have deep meaning, by dreams that need completion, by pure love that needs expressing -- then we truly live life." I guess that's true. Life can only be meaningful if it's being planned and structured to its intricate details. That's the life we are talking about. 

And it's pretty weird how these aspirations come with a price most of the time. Time is the factor. Limiting factor.

The new term's starting soon, the only way for one to achieve his aspirations is to seize the chance. There's a lifeline left and i'm not going to waste it. Never again.

Nil Sine Labore. 2009.

I realised how life fools around with us.

Before i start, i better declare that this post may seem angsty but it's definitely how i feel over the couple of days.

Firstly, things aren't going the right way. We talk about commitment. We talk about aspirations. As time goes by, you see people losing it in the most disgusting and horrendous ways ever. We come forward to lead, we come forward to impose changes. The truth is this, who will sustain?

That's a question everyone have to think about. I actually spoke to my classmate in the morning and there he was complaining to me how some activities seemed to stop before people could ignite the passion in them. It's a completely different situation that i'm in now but i realise that people like this will fail in life.

I must say, i dedicate my 100% to things i want to achieve. It's by no means easy but that's the determination you need to complete the race. I seek no rewards, at the end of the day, its the same concept : How much you put in is how much you get.

You often realise how people change within a short period of time. I've seen too many classic examples of what it means to be someone with a "short-life". Just 3 words to describe these people. Useless, Rubbish, Parasites. 

Perhaps we should get people to start to use the 3 Rs when they see these people.

 

Reuse : Throw them into the bin or flush down the toilet bowl. Dip them into human waste, process them and grind them into processed food. Treat them as animal feed.

Reduce : Use these people as little as possible. They may impede your progress in everything, be it projects or just mere work. Let them rot and die.

Recycle : I have no idea how you can manage these waste but try your best to recycle them. If they are a source to you that is.

It seems pretty interesting to see how you have to treat some people. I never believed in the past. The past were full of mistakes, look at it, learn and move on. Stop procrastinating, it's a sin. No point talking about your good old days. The truth is: They will never return. Don't talk to me about STI hitting close to 4000 points. Singapore nearly made it to 2000 points according to yesterday's closing index.

Talk about the present. Move on people. Others changed. So have you. Just freaking move on. The less abled should be helped, not those who don't want to help themselves.

I guess that's enough. 

ask not what others can do for you, but what you can do for others.

I just wondered how it felt like to be someone you never want to be.

Probably i'll give an example. Bush becoming Saddam. Makes sense?

The obvious answer: No.

Well think about it, many a times we treat life just as it is. Have we ever sat down and think?What if i become someone whom i have always hated. Offer yourself new perspectives, look at things from a different angle. That's probably the best way to discover life. Days don't pass that easily unless you choose to allow it to do so. Everyone has time. Learn everything you want and don't want too.

In 2009, i offer myself new chances, new opportunities and many different aspects of life to look into. Despite the heavy schedule and the immense workload i expect from school, i'll offer more chances to myself, discovering and rediscovering myself. We all know 2008 is not a pleasant year but we've all been through it. 2008 made me realise how much time i have wasted in life. I haven't been able to do what i always want.

So guys, spread your wings, let your dreams soar and achieve what you want in life.

Dreams. Hope to mankind.

I AM IN DISBELIEF.

SEE FOR YOURSELF.

75 years of tradition ...

GONE!

CHS NEW PE T-SHIRT. This is gay max.

Welcome 2009.

Somehow i'm not feeling anything for the start of 2009, which is kinda deviating from the norm. Oh wells.

SHOO 2008. Bad year. 

Everything bad happened in 2008 so i always wanted 2009 to come. Gone are the dark days. 

New year resolutions? 

I've already had them all out. I'm working towards all of them so just watch!

Change is something i believe in 2009. Change in everything, back with a whole new me:)

HAPPY NEW YEAR :)

I swear it feels good to go back to the pool. 

I haven't been swimming for gazillion years and it really feels great to swim. At night especially. And it's no joke doing 20 laps now, i feel weak. 20 laps could have been an easy task for me in the past but not now. And it sucks to feel as if i lost my sense of balance after the swim. Oh wells, at least i swam:)

And again it's life as per normal. Just like how i described to glen in the morning. That syndrome that seemed to have caught up with all of us recently. I swear this is so weird and quirky i have no idea why am i doing this still. The routine goes like this. First you switch on your computer, enter msn and you feel like talking to no one. Then you surf random sites and yes. STONE. Oh my gosh why has life become a humdrum routine. 

It seems that i have gotten a way to motivate myself. I shall keep it this way for as long as i can, it feels great :)

Ok i'm so looking forward to 2009. 3 DAYS.

How i wished some things never end.

Think bout it. Why do people regret what they have done. Why do people regret wasting their time on useless matters.

I'm not wasting time blogging, i'm reflecting.

Let miracles happen, not pray for them to happen.

Back to work.

I don't think i'm able to complete my 100th post by 31st Dec.

Oh wells nevermind. Just read up about the probable death sentence for the ex-chairman for Sanlu group. I guess a death sentence will not be enough to act as a deterrence?

Let me suggest.

Since she loves poison, we'll feed her poison. I'm not saying we should force her to consume poison. Just feed her with 2 litres of milk ( With melamine content ) everyday as stated as the healthy daily requirements and see how long she'll last? Maybe her kidneys are made of real hard steel that won't burst even in the presence of kidney stones. And that will not cause instant death. Put her up in some detention centre ( Just like guantanamo bay ) and allow people to view her suffering. LET THIS BE A WARNING TO ALL UNSCRUPULOUS BEINGS.

Ok i'm turning into a mutated species like kenrick. LOL.

Back from bio crash course. 

It's good to refresh those bio "thingy". Feels great to realise i have been misinterpreting EVERYTHING all this while.

So that's why i didn't even manage to make the mark.

Subconsciously. I'm thinking of the same problem.

Ok time will heal. I believe.

Merry boxing day:)

I haven't really thought of blogging ever since i came back from the short trip:x Oh wells. Life's been tough these few days as i TRY to study for my R papers. Once again thanks to all out there encouraging me for my Rs:)

The trip's been quite a different one from what i've gone for for the past few years. No more CHINESE, it's malay this time round so it didnt really make a difference. At least i know it sucks more because more than 70% of the programmes there are Malay. OUCH.

That didn't stop me from shopping though. It's quite a shopping trip actually, where i got most of my stuff for next year. Kinda wanted to change my entire wardrobe but yea that means instant execution:X I've got presents and all and i must say: BRING MORE MONEY TO SHOP OVERSEAS. I seem to be promoting the KL end-year sales:X

Ok back to christmas. It's been quite a sad christmas actually. Thinking bout it, i didn't really long for christmas to come. Sorrows, heartache, everything else filled this Christmas. And yes. I'm emotionally unstable. Human always try too hard, thinking they can always control everything. At least i say that's a problem with me. Truths are always hard to swallow. Hard as it is, i'm swallowing it and hoping that time goes by and counteracts the effect of it.

Why am i back to where i started out initially. I'm supposed to be studying now but i think this is a pertinent issue i need to really settle. Get my priorities right? I'm trying. So what's wrong. It's stupid to know that you are going back to where you are and trying your best to start afresh. I don't see a reason why i should do so. Lies, deception may be the best cover for now. Fake a smile, treat everything else i don't wanna see as transparent and i guess that's the best way to get out of these rampant problems. Truths are hard to hide from others but this is the best way out now. There's no turning back, 2008 will be gone in 5 days time. It's either seize it or regret. 

Or at least. Relationship-free. I'm turning into a unfeeling beast.

I feel rather sinful sitting in front of my computer lazing away.

It's just 4 days that i haven't been in school and i'm feeling fatigued. It's definitely not because i haven't been busy. I've been gaming since like Friday and i swear this sucks. My life's becoming an insipid routine. Darn.

I rather be in school. Even if i'm not studying ( which i'll most likely be doing ), i'll be doing some council stuff or playing volleyball. 

I'm leaving for holiday soon and that means i have less than 20 days to study for my R-papers. Bless me. I need to pass.

Now i understand what addiction feels like. Or at least something of that sort. It sucks.

BACK TO WORK :)

Oh and i'm secretly happy that i have to buy presents for others because that means i'm able to look for what i like as well. People are asking what i like and haha! It's good to be random all the time. No one knows what i really want and that means more surprises. That's a pretty cheap way of getting surprises:x

OK SHOPPING IN KL. i hope my wallet's heavier than the presents i'm gonna get.

Back on 19th.

I just realised life's never fair.

Why?

What's the purpose of life when you can live for eternity?

What's the purpose of life when you can live till this very moment?

I wonder.

Once a string's broken. There's no way mending it back to it's original state.

I guess life's like that. I thought it through. 

Time passed. Have we wondered what else could we have done better in life? To be frank and honest with myself, I haven't been. Probably it's just how I choose to live my life. I look upon the problems and dwell in them for a couple of moments before i get up again, treat as if nothing has happened before and live on life.

Is that the right way?

I wonder. What's life? What's your meaning of life.

To live life to the fullest? but HOW?

To do well in your career/education? Is that your ultimate goal in life?

To have a happy family? Viable?

We often live life in the simplest possible way we can. Frankly, all human do the same. Who loves complication? Ask yourself. 

I need to learn from past mistakes and move on. Learn from failed attempts and ensure i stop making the same mistake. Stop hurting those you never intended to.

That little devil in me is full of mischief. One mistake, and there you go. One lost friend.

I will overcome it. Little angel, save me.

I shall repent, but just to note. 

Don't cry over spilled milk. 

Make that cup of spilled milk worth it's sacrifice.

i'm back.

Back to reality.

Mugging. And maybe that's life. 

CHEM AND BIO SPARE ME.

And now i suspect i'll have some problems with GP too. This is disastrous. I swear. And the thought of having a GP Tutor next year sends shiver down my spine. Just imagine. We'll have a new tutor for Bio, Chem and GP. Maybe Econs as well. That means. MUCH MORE HOMEWORK TO COMPLETE. 

save me.

Oh well. Back to routine. 

还是没有想清楚。到底是什么？

还没有定下心来。

在等。

是错觉吗？我不晓得。

这到底是什么?

我还在寻找答案。

SDD IS OVER.
I have to declare a break. Till 7 December( And it's more or less over! )

Anyway, good job SDD ad-hoc. I think you guys really did well. Both Le-Anne and me are proud of the ad-hoc. There were so many unforeseen circumstances, but i guess you guys gave it your all and did what you think was right. And for most of you guys. YOU MADE THE DAY RIGHT.

I must thank the rest of council and my friends who have been behind me all this while. SDD is really a tough event, and it really stretched me to my maximum. The last two weeks was really when our ad-hoc bonded the most, especially the few of us ( You guys will know who you are ) I must really say this events gives me a sense of achievment. Not because the event's a success, but because i got to understand my councilmates more. Probably that's what i treasure most.

Friendship.

I realised that i'm not someone who is able to make close friends. That's not because i don't try hard enough to but probably that's just how it seemed to be. That's why i treasure friendship that much.

Friendship lasts. Let it last till eternity.

9 more days.

STRESS IS OVERBEARING.
Somehow i still want it to arrive much earlier. Like tomorrow or something ( though i think we can't produce anything if it's tomorrow)

I'M EXCITED.

ok weirdo.

i'll be back after 9 days!

Always be my Baby
-David Cook

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be apart of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....

You'll always be apart of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

Always be my baby
Always be my baby

结果还是无法挽回。

人生当中，犯了数不清的错误。

错误的根源何时剖析？

现日太迟了。

她已经放弃了，我是否还要坚持下去？

毫无留情的时光这样过去了。

原来你日子没有好过。

默默地忍受着委屈，

我一直没察觉到。

你已有了你自己的打算。

也许，我真的不是你想像中的完美。

我也有自己的弱点。

也许就这样，

爱情就此结束。

如今我未做出打算，

但我一定会记得第一次伤害你的时候。

最后的离别。

为何让人无奈？

我错了。

我应该怎么办？

Did things really go the way we want it?
I doubt so.
Not even at that moment i really really wanted to make a change.
It's too late.
Too late for anything.
Everything.
Gone.

I left it to fate to decide.
And fate decided.
To let that 5 mth old die off.
In an unfashionable.
Cruel way.

There's no way back.
It's dead.
No point resurrecting.
It's dead.
Pulse rate zero.

I know it's time.
Like what i did 2 years ago.
Once again.

Let fate decide.
If it is ever fair to everyone.

我还是过不了心里这关。

为什么成绩就是一切？这文凭挂帅的社会令人感到厌烦。

它糟蹋人生，还算得了什么评估我们本领的一种方式？

没有了你的日子怎么过？我不晓得。

心林的创伤，的确是人世间最痛的滋味。。。

Its hurts more than ever.

Unknowingly, i created the greatest disappointment ever.

To the one i love the most, i hurt you the most.

Why is my life that devastating?

I need to reconsider what i want to do in life.

4As and i'll be back.

Forever.

I have no idea how many months i haven't been blogging but the truth is this. I don't feel like blogging anymore.

Maybe that's how i feel.

I'm not exactly in a very good mood but i guess that's because of so many things that happened recently. Let's count the number of setbacks.

1. BAD RESULTS.

I'm terribly disappointed with myself. Frankly, i can't wait to kill myself. How on earth can i get such disastrous grades? The first thing when people come to me is that they will ask a very interesting question that i myself can't answer it : Why like that?

Don't ask me why. I have not been slacking. I did my tutorials. I did study. So what happened?

STUPID? Maybe.

Or Just plain excuses. I have no idea about this. What's the real problem about me?

Guess what. This affected how i view life. I'm no longer like who i was in the past. I'm no longer like that Collin everyone knew. My confidence is at rock bottom. I never felt like this before and i seriously think something's really wrong.

People don't understand how i really feel. Maybe that's a facade of me that you always see. I'm not the real me that you see. No longer at least. What i really feel i don't show it. Maybe this facade is causing me to move away from reality.

Am i just results orientated? I have no idea.

2. CCA life.

Seriously, i've been putting in my all for my cca. I once thought that i was driven by power. The true fact is: I wasn't. I had a fantastic cca record in the past, but what's left now. Nothing. I don't really care what i get and how people want to priorities their cca in their life. I really don't care. I'll be there for those who put in their best and their all, and i'm there just solely because this people are there. I really thank them for being my fellow true council mates. I'm going to council because i know i can't bear to just leave you people struggling.

The thing is this. Things may have changed. I have no idea why, but i think this may all be wrong. Not wrong about those people who put in their best, but wrong about myself. Am i that important? I feel myself crumbling into pieces, never piecing up again. I feel myself getting hurt everytime i put i my best. I just want to stop this. It's hurting i swear. Emotionally. It just hurts.

Why. Someone just tell me why. Do i deserve this. I really need to think about this.

3. My life.

Due to my results, i'm losing freedom. The thing is this. Does doing badly means that you haven't been studying hard? I've gotten a ban and supposed to be leaving a life in seclusion i guess. No more freedom. And if you dare to cross the borders... You get it.

Imagine everything hitting you at the same time, same instance. I guess even the strongest man has difficulty trying to overcome it, what about me? I'm not that strong emotionally. Even determination does not help all the time. Sometimes you realise, the more determined you are, the more you hate yourself. Yes. Maybe i hate myself now.

I hate it for not being able to handle it, i hate myself for not being able to understand the failures. Maybe that's failures in life.

The harsh reality is this. Is there any chances for you to stand up once again?

Should i give up? 

TIME IS RUNNING UP.

Perhaps that's why i'm kinda worried now. What i memorise don't gets to retain in my memory bank for 1 week.

And that is worrying.

Terrible.

I'll be back.

WOW. Just look at the time.
For some reason, i feel like blogging now so well. let me splurt out whatever i feel like saying=)

I just got motivated to do SDD planning. Not saying that i was not motivated in the past but i'm even motivated to do so now. So yes. Full force for SDD. And same for PW as well. Coolios.

And i realised something. Did i watch like 10 + movies since the start of the year? LOL. I should start counting.

Cloverfield
L- Change the World
Indiana Jones- Crystal Skull
Iron Man
Wanted
Get Smart
Accuracy of Death
10 promises to my dog
CJ7
Leap Years
The Happening

Anymore? HAHA!
More to add on to the list when Mummy, Hellboy comes along soon. Perhaps x-files as well=)
OK SLEEP TIME!

I'M BACK FROM THE NETHERWORLD.
books. mugging.
thats a sad life i lived.

Oh wells. at least mid years are over. and i'm glad it is. i just cant take it when u know that whatever you study will eventually diffuse out of that permeable brain cells of yours. darn.
But well. I guess i have to concentrate on other stuff now!

And yes. finally i changed my phone. and i paid for it( well thats not the point) but ya at least i got to change. Bye to flips. Bye to the reflective glossy front of z610i. I wave goodbye.
And i think i did try to give myself a little treat for this few days. Like for thursday, i watched WANTED with class clique. AND OMG IT IS THE BEST SHOW I'VE EVER SEEN FOR TWO YEARS AT LEAST. haha. PIEW. How i wished life was like this.
And friday we went for cycling from 6.30 to about 11.30 at ecp. and we cycled more than 30 km. FROM ECP TO END OF CHANGI BEACH=) But sad it was only just 5 of us. Imagine if the whole class went it would have been so great. Haha.

And on saturday i went out after sdd meeting. Well it was kinda bad initially with so many stuff not going to what was planned. But it got better over time. especially especially that we actually saw FIREWORKS! Kinda lucky since yesterday was like the first NDP Rehearsal. HAHA. No wonder there was so many people there.

OH WELLS. FUN'S ENDING SOON. AT 4.30AM TOMORROW I GUESS.
UEFA FINALS.
GO GERMANY.
2-1 I think.
Soccer punters don't bet because of this :x

BYEE!

MSN BACKSTABBED ME. and yes it left me disappointed.
All the best for mid years.

20:03:29

The clock started ticking. 

i miss you.

day 1: lost

day 2: emptiness.

2 more days. and i'm still waiting.

到底怎么了。

对这份爱情，我实在搞不懂。到底问题出在那里，当我一致想要真心地给你我的爱时，才发现你开始放弃我们之间的感情，到底是放弃了我还是放弃了一切？

也许这几天的冷淡让我知晓了你在我心中的地位，不知不觉地了解到我多么喜欢你。晴天后接着是雨天，春天后接着是冬天，我们的爱是否就这样冰冻起来了。

这也让我发现到爱情即将结束时的危机，你对我不理不睬，问你何故你却勉强地给我一丝笑容，说没发生任何事情。到底我做错了什么。

如今。我只希望你口口声声地告诉我到底发生了什么，让我弥补一切，在这份爱情熄灭之前挽救一切，以避免一生的后悔。

转捩点。

It's been a week with ups and downs. Last week i thought i would have gotten it without ease.

Now i know nothing should be taken for granted. Nothing at all. Not even that relationship. Nothing at all.

Well. From hero to zero to nothing. Perhaps that's what i really felt.

And don't come and tell me this.

HARDWORK = REWARD

But well, i congratulate all of them. Because they deserved it. Or rather. I think they deserve it. 

I'll still support what i believe in. But i have other goals in life.

Now. 2 CCAs.

FLOORBALL! ok well, just had my first pt session on friday and i died. man i must train more.

yeaps. and i already set my targets. Rush for team, rush for what i believe in. And i can't waste more time. Gone are the days whereby i can just slack around and expect that i still have time ahead.

And yes i have lesser time for everything now. Even family time and time to spend on you, so i need you to understand. Nothing really changed. And i'll be deserving of those words.

It's the trust between us that doesn't break us no matter what happens. It's been a journey of our lives. And it changed our worlds. Even the best falls down sometimes. This won't break us, though. It's just tests after tests. As long as you believe in it as much as i do, nothing will change. Nothing will. Maybe it's a projection of the future, but there'll be more ahead. Unless we know what we really want in life, we'll fall into the trap. One that we'll regret falling into. So we'll just face it as one, and carry on as per normal. Like nothing ever happened before. And this will change our life. Totally. Still that 3 words. I LOVE YOU.

17! 3 days!

And i swear i got the best birthday ever. Surprises, and everything.

And yes of course. Not forgetting the accompany. The gifts. I enjoyed them.

Really. Maybe it's just vj's school spirit. Maybe its the friends i have. Thanks so much.

Especially with you. Thanks so much.

plan 1, plan 2, plan 3, plan 4. Am i suppose to think of on with more than 4 plans? pressure.

AND YEAPS.

Presidential elections. 3 april to 8 april!

PEOPLE CAST YOUR VOTES FOR VJ'S 25TH PRESIDENT!

All the best presidential nominees.

i love it this way.

everything continues. 

and so does this journey.

sarang haeyo.

Milestone No 1: 23/03/08
Life goes on. Still. Rocky beaches. Yet still rowing on.

Maybe it's what i'v said that changed that opinion. 

But i just wanna say i was really true bout what i've said because i don't want to lie.

Maybe, its different now. 

But i just wanna say.

This feeling's true.

I swear.

When the feeling's changed, you see a new purpose in life. 

There's been so much changes recently, i thought i couldn't handle it.

But as i walk this path, i now know what's lying ahead.

What is and What's not.

Even when i'm given a chance to change history totally, i wouldn't.

That's because i know it wouldn't be the same again.

And maybe i wouldn't have met someone special in life.

Walking on this route desired in life...

I'M BACK! 

Been busy busy busy but well life's been super entertaining.

ok at least with a new found purpose in life.=)

GOOD FRIDAY TODAY so ya i didnt really had much to do but stay here and blog.

boring life. but maybe thats why i love it. how paradoxical.

oh well. i expect more to come next week? and may i get into the committee i want=)

and everyone else as well. 25ths!

Still rocking on=)

I SET MY GOALS FOR THE NEW YEAR(LUNAR):
Rather it's a list of movies i wanna watch=x

1. L-Change the World - February 21st 2008 (DONE!)
2.10,000 B.C -March 6th 2008( WATCHED LEAP YEARS INSTEAD )
3.Prom Night- April 11st 2008
4.The Forbidden Kingdom- April 17th 2008
5.Doomday- April 24th 2008
6.Ironman- April 30th 2008
7.The Chronicles of Narnia- Prince Caspian - May 29th 2008
8.Wanted- June 27th 2008
9. Hellboy 2- July 10th 2008

Who wanna watch pm me=)

HAPPY CNY!

i'm too bored staying at home.

Bio test on monday, mass dance practice on monday. woohoo.

VOTING CONTINUES TILL 12 FEB. CONTINUE VOTING.

i just realised i really want to get into sc. for some reason. or rather. for all reasons anyone can think of. lol. random rantings.

08s38 ALWAYS!=)

ITS BEEN A BUSY WEEK!

But yups, at least it was nice. well maybe nice is an understatement.

I passed the interviews, but they mean nothing yet?

Just put up posters and stuff yesterday and voting starts officially on MONDAY!!!

VOTE FOR ME!

And yeaps. Scandals everywhere. No more mel for glen, now serene. Teckboon and peirong. Emily and Jason??? But yea. Scandals as they remain.

14 ppl came to my house yesterday to pack the cny stuff. and we got scammed.-.- those goodies didnt even fit 110 boxes. well, and jasmine is off to enjoy. then we pooled and played table tennis. well. it ended at 11 and me,glen,pris,jae and jacq were left. then we went to macs for supper and glen treated!(maybe not willingly but...) 

WHO WANTS TO BE GENERAL SECRETARY PM ME THX!

ok. o levels results are out and i'm disappointed.
i'm short of my target by 2 a1s and 2 points above what i expected.
8 points and its caused by my b3 in english. i feel like some dumb idiot.

BUTBUT I'M STAYING IN VJ. that's a consolation.

sigh. why did i fail my english?
and yes i congrats those many people in my class who got 8a1s and above.
oh well. i'm back in s38. and scandals are going more and more ridiculous.
COUNCIL'S INTERVIEW RESULTS ON MONDAY!

havent really blogged for about a week cause i was really tired. physically and mentally.
now i start to wonder whether i chose the wrong ccas ever since i was young. really. did i go into the wrong school?
now that floorball, t tennis are impossible. i think i screwed the sports cca part. maybe bowling for tomorrow, but everyone noes my chances are slim.

ct or sc.
someone tell me now. please.
or i may just leave. or i'll regret for life.

SEA CARNIVAL!
Yea, it's still in my head. rather. it's printed on my face.

I'VE GOT SUNBURNS.

Started the day with some scolding sessions. no dunking eh. ya so no choice. we went for all our station games. First up. Volleyball. In the water. yea. but ok we won. lol. Then it was tug of war and eh a couple more. But at least they were quite nice.

Then came jostling. i got knocked out in the first round. darn lousy la. throw valour face. but the ivanhoe guy was great. haha. then we had mass dance and gt CHAO TA-ED under the scorching sun.

Then we went back to bathe and gathered before going for og lunch at eplanade. but VAGABOND PS-ed! so only sharon went back to esplanade while we had yoshi! we were all chatting when weihao suddenly came up with freaking cold jokes. then rouhui was so random and she went: collin you put make up ar? wth. i put make up? nuts man.

then we went back and played a couple of games but i volunteered to do the forfeit. lol. then i came back home after just one round.

ok tomorrow's going to be short cause i have to attend my grandfather's funeral. ok nites everyone. grandpa rest in peace.

Sea regetta's tomorrow and i expect more fun!

Back to yesterday. Again i died once i came back home.without switching on my com at all.(miracle)

Met up with vagabond at 5.00 yesterday after getting my hair cut. den we went to new york for dinner! yea all went cept 3 i think. and sharon was late. then we were talking bout all the stuff we could think of like academics, ccas and so on. then tina came and joined us cause her og somehow ps-ed her. then osiris treated their ogls, and yea we were somehow asked to do the same thing but i guess the girls didnt wanted so.. ya ogls didnt have their treat!

then went to collect my applecare before going to the fountain of wealth. and yea the turnout rate was pretty high. but somehow the weather wasn't really good. drizzle and an eventual downpour. but who said VJ'S gonna give up?

No way.

So we continued with the mass dances and yes we enjoyed. while we cheered. we made our own train and started running around. we shouted everything we could think off. and yea some people couldn't understand. and we actually sang chs sch song? yea n i gt chased after and taupok-ed after that.

den it came to an end and yea we wanted to have supper. but in the end we all disbanded. so we were like walking back to citylink with arianto's og and we were like talking bout something which caused a protest by the cedarians. lol. then melphin and i were like. okok. cedar boys did that. LOL. then we went back.

I'm expecting more from tomorrow. MORE DUNKING!

BACK BACK BACK!

I'll talk bout 2nd day orientationa ctiivities before moving to the first=)

BOLLYWOOD SCHOOL OF ARTS!

that's vj.

dances and cheers. who can ever resist? victorians? lol.

danced alot, got jacked for the unique cca thing.

its supposed to be getting names of those interested in 3 new ccas: roller blading, sdu and pool.

you know which i chose. and yea it came up to be a bogus one. quite pissed, but ok nvm, join floorball then?

OK Back to today!

started out with the assembly where i was totally lost because it was in total chaos.

then we had to go to our individual classes. S38! And yeaps. the scams. don't wanna talk bout it but yea. it did a little surprise afterall.

then went for the wet games where i got myself totally wet( because i soaked myself totally?)

yeaps and games like e water dodge ball, lemonade, the foam thingy and others.

then we had this h3 talk that alot of us were nt really interested about.i mean yea, i don;t think i can even hit its basic requirements. stupid me.

then we were back for inter og games and yeaps nice test and stuff. how i wished i got the brains to do that in the past. and then...

THE CHEERS AND DANCES. i suddenly realsied. VJ isn't really vj if there aren't cheers and dances. sweat a lot. but yeaps. worth it. 

I LOVE VJ!!

post og events, i'll update some other time? or maybe not. ahaha.

PS!!!

VJ MASS DANCE AT SUNTEC FOUNTAIN OF WEALTH ON 5TH JAN!!!

WOOOHOOOO. now i want to stay even longer than before.

VJC!!

orientation day 1 rocks. though the first thing you wouldn't want is for you to be late. i was.

woke up at 6.00 and took the 6.40 bus 87 to eunos. then waited for 1/2 hour because the bus broke down. wow eh?

then registered and i loved the vj tee. coolio man.

then we had to do some icebreakers before proceeding. then lunch blah blah blah.

MASS CHEERS. vj defnitely has the best cheers. and the best school spirit. i ain't in the wrong school. MASS DANCE!

looking forward for more stuff tomorrow. vj valour rock on!

Just 13 more hours.
and i'm back to school.

I HOPE I CAN SLEEP EARLY TONIGHT.

Jigglypuff i choose you.

WELCOME 2008!
and bye bye 2007.
2007 has been a great year i guess.At least most of the time.
I bet most people are sleeping already since it's like urm. 3.15am now? hmm.
BUT IT'S MY LAST DAY TO SLEEP LATE!
i wonder how will i be able to wake up on time tomorrow. LOL.

now 2008.
01/01/2008.
I want better results!
And more sports. please.

wishing all a happy new year!=)

Ok, back for a second post.

I don't like girls.BUT i'm not gay like duh-.-

This is because of those girls i'm teaching for tuition. They are totally irritating!

Sometimes i just wonder whether i was like that in the past. It's really pissing me off. I think i was on the verge of screaming at them just now. seriously i rather teach in the other class. At least i know the guy wants to learn. I JUST CAN'T TAKE THOSE KIDS.

nevermind. 3 more weeks. and i'm most likely gonna turn them down. Off they go then.

4 more days. And i still cant get my subgroup right. great.

CONCLUSION: i will never teach and i respect my primary school teachers.

Well, went to minghan's bday party yesterday and yeaps as expected.

We got him MASS EFFECT. And he was jumping around when he opened it.

Then waited for more guys to arrive at his home before going to northpoint for lunch cum movie. I AM LEGEND.

I think it totally wasted my time because it sucked. No starting, no ending. And those supposingly mutated species looked exactly liked those screwed up zombies from house of the dead. wow. wastd 8 bucks on something that i thought was worth maybe 5 bucks. Only the part on the LIGHT UP THE DARKNESS made sense.

Then we got to amk for supposingly LAN PARTY. And of course i disagreed. OBJECTION. when have i ever lan-ed? Then we got to the arcade and pool till bout 6 before meeting up with them at 6+.

By the time we went back, bbq session started. And of course, we enjoyed bbqing. Actually, i was pissed off with some guys. Simply just playing cards over there and just come over to ask for food. Bet you know what i was thinking then. Then we waited for mr quay to arrive cause he was supposed to reach at 8 but ended up reaching at 9.30 or so- because of his PUNCTURED TYRE.

Whole session was pretty ok, talking to kerry n kok wah and others but definitely if yb came it would have been much better. More snsd stuff to talk about. lol.

ok i guess thats all. WAX ON THE CAKE!=)

i'm too tired today.

will blog the details tomorrow.

And yes. i got my subgroup wrong.

good job collin tang!

=(

ok. weird names.
valour, zagabond.
Like what bicko/spvn suggested, they should have used greek names.
no wonder they couldn't remember their ogs.

2008 task:
BLOG DAILY.
=)

I dunnoe my og yet!!!
Apparently there are alot of ogs. 8 x 8. wow figure.
6 days more to vj ;)

And i have more choices for cca now.
BOWLING.
If i ever start bowling, i bet the lanes will crash before nationals.
LOL.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!=x
ok maybe i'm a little too late. eh.
Ok since we have to choose our subject combinations for next year. I'LL ANNOUNCE MINE! ok nothing grand.
As expected. GP, bio, chem, maths, econs.

2nd choice. I BET MR QUAY WANTS TO SEE THIS.
PHYSICS, chem, maths, econs.

I better hope i dun get posted to physics. i think i'll drop it to h1 if i'll take-.-

Another problem.
CCA.
Should i join...
1. Kayaking??
2.Badminton??
3.Floorball??
4.Council

Maybe i'll choose something plus council. but i hv to ensure that i have time for my own private life!

Haven't blogged for a long time so i suppose i'm gonna do something special this time.

I just got this funny thought.

Lets see.

What's the chances of getting a girlfriend who is  a:

Singaporean

Bout our age

Pretty

Smart

Rich

No attitude problems

No criminal record

Nice to you

Loves you

Can sing

Tall( 1.70m and above)

Ok. Now lets start evaluating. I'll use simple statistics to calculate this probability.

Singaporean: 4million (about 50% girls)

Left: 2 Million

Bout our age: 100,000  x  50%

Left: 50,000 girls

Pretty: Let's take 10% of the girls

50,000 x 10%

Left: 5000 girls

Smart: Let's take 10% of the girls

5,000 x 10%

Left: 500 girls

Rich: Let's take 50% of the girls

500 x 50%

Left:250 girls

No attitude problem: Let's take 50% of the girls

250 x 50%

Left:125 girls

No criminal record: Let's take 90%

125 x 90%

Left: 112.5 girls ~ 112 girls

Nice to you: Let's take 50%

112 x 50%

Left: 56 girls

Loves you: Let's take 80%

56 x 80%

Left: 44.8 girls~ 44 girls

Can sing: Let's take 40 %

44 x 40%

Left: 17.6 girls ~ 17 girls

Tall: 1.70m Let's take 5%

17 x 5%

Left: 0.85 girl~ 0 girl

GUYS. JUST STOP DREAMING. THERE WILL BE NO SUCH GIRLS!=P

Its been 3 weeks..
I'M BORED TO DEATH!

i dun think i'll be blogging much but. ok at least kill some time. i'm anxiously waiting for dec 13. what if freak accidents happen.

just that 1 week more. and i'm waiting for my snsd album from korea!=))
tae yeon!!<333

O's are over. I waited for this damn day for how many eons -.- Now its all over.
No mugging.
No books.
No Physics.
Bye History.
Bye Geography.
Sigh. i miss those mugging days.I still remembered those times we were anxiously waiting for the start of O's. The nervousness in us. i can't simply explain it in words. Now here we are. O level graduates. Man. i want to get my results soon. Not because i know i'll do well, but cause i'll do badly. Just wanna end the sorrow. I think it;s already a miracle to stay in vj.
I miss the times i studied at bishan library.I miss the times i studied at bishan cc. Those memories. I'll remember it for life. Thanks to those who's been with me all this while. Thanks for the support, thanks for the encouragement. Hope you people did great.
Tonights gradnite, i hope to be able to enjoy myself after putting in all my hardwork. I'll enjoy myself, for this short break i've got.

well. just 24 days to o levels!!!
thats.. thats... 3 weekss!!! gosh!!!

well prelims perhaps secured my place at my jc of my choice. but the problem is this.

CAN I STAY??

gosh. it's like 1/2 of 4-6 aiming to go to VJ and i'm like not the top 10 of the class or something. mann. this is darn stressful.

aniwae, at least i secured my place. should i count myself lucky or i deserved what i get? i think its the former.

Scores breakdown as follows.
English - 74 + 4 = 78
Chinese - 76 + 1 = 77
A Maths- 82 - 2 = 80
E Maths- 91 - 6 = 85
Biology- 74 = 74
Chemistry- 77 =77
Physics- 68 + 3.5 =71.5
History- 77 + 2 = 79
Combined humanities- 37 + 41 + 6 =84

Ok this isnt a good sign. the pluses are moderations. And i'm like not really happy with that. Cause it simply means that my standard isnt that yet. i need to put in more effort. If its just based on my own ability, i wld have scored 7 points instead of 6. That only shows one thing. i'm not there yet. its just 24 days. and its gonna be the most important 24 days in my life.

PRELIMS ENDED.

tough battle man. i think i almost died trying to complete the entire prelims.( i sound as if i'm consuming some poison=X) hall of fame is gonna be released soon.. or rather its been up already. Can anyone believe Minghan topped the class in english? i think no one can imagine that. but he did. oh well. 114 distinctions for english. with a 2 in hand, i think i'm left wif 6 pts for my remaining 5 subs. will i hit that 6 i want?? i dunnoe.

oh nevermind. at least i'm gonna treat myself by getting TWINS PARTY( GILLIAN Version) =))) EEG's strategy again splitting gillian and charlene's songs into two versions. 7 songs that they sang together and 2 other solo songs in their individual twins party version. i'm so gonna get my hands on it.

wish me luck for the results.=)

I LOST COUNT!

wait. how many days left to o's?
oh well. i just know prelim starts TOMORROW. gosh. i dun think i've been studying much. bless me so that i'll be at my top form and PLS DUN SCREW UP><. ok gtg. baq to blogging after prelims=)

its lesser than 90 days to o levels!!!
stress stress stress.

homework galore. it seems like this never stops, but i seem to love it.

library's my second home i guess. countdown:89 days!

CHMA's over and sure i've enjoyed it.well joel's undecided deserved to win. and marcus sang well for that day. good jobs guys=)

Anyway, treaty of Versailles and the appeasement treaty. Germany's expansionist policy. Oh well i'm not trying to pull out history facts but the" League of Nations" supposingly wanted to stop me from" Germany's expansionist policy". this is certainly not talking bout world war 2, but the situation now. lol. so how now? HAHA. well if you get it, you get it. if you dun, u dun.=)

now everything's changed. life changed as well. 1 day more. 110707. its gonna change the lives of at least 14 people. but i've just to quote this: i created it. i lived through it. i ended it. My destiny. it's ending in 1 days time.

its freedom for 3 days! after all the setbacks last week, i've learnt something: dun trust anyone.
study everything, practise like nutz, you may nt get wad u want. so just go with fate!
expected l1r5 is rnd 20. damn...

070707 is next week!!

the GATSBY Craze. Maybe it really drives you mad when you choose to repeatedly listen to it. HIGHLY ADDICTIVE. 4 stars.=)

well. 7 minutes = 16 minutes.
when can 7 minutes = 16 minutes? when you try to order apple pie at macs. took me 9 minutes more. pls macs more efficiency eh. more business then.=)

130 days to O levels.

Its jun 5th. wow.

just two days of intensive and i'm getting tired. i might as well they declare no holiday and allow us to work like some freaking automaton. Maybe i'll be able to get my desired results=)

I thought of a story to share. Perhaps i talk bout the moral of the story first: DON'S STALK A PERSON. so this is how it goes.

Once upon a time, there was a guy called michael. well. people thinks he's desperate but well only a few people comment about that so everyone thought it was just some biased kind of view towards him. Well time definitely said much bout his character.

One day he tries to know this gal more( Michelle). so he started to get to know her more through another friend called Tom. Well for some reason or another he thought Tom and Michelle were together but of cause they werent. SO he started planning. Firstly he tried to approach her by saying" Heys wanna go study together?" then of cax Michelle ignored. well he continued. eh bugging... bugging. calling her. smsing her. day and night. trying to know where she was. oh well. she got so pissed off, she decided to just tell him straight in his face. GET LOST. OUT OF MY LIFE.

wait a second... does this apply to some people in your life?

200 pound beauty rocks. Finally my first movie for the holiday=D
I'm totally into the OST.

oh well. i think there goes my a1. dunn wanna talk bout it. it sucks=.=
gt my oral left to pull me up it better do. oh well i rather go sport now. bye.

17 days to O' chinese. Good luck people!

Man in Singapore has NS, do woman have too?
Someone quoted that woman have to do "NS" as well ...perhaps not quite.
Well NS in this sense means giving birth but well, since Singapore is currently facing a crisis of insufficient growth rate to substantiate the elderly population. There are certainly lesser babies given birth annually as compared to before the 1997 crisis, but we have to realise the fact that the decreasing birth rates may not necessarily mean that we are in trouble. I think we should phrase it this way. An impending problem. If we think that using baby bonuses can help to aggravate the birthrates per year( it works to a large extent), i personally think that we have to firstly think about the welfare of the people. In another sense, support to the people in as many ways as possible and not resorting to just the use of monetary means to "convince" people of the benefits of giving birth. As we can see the taxes are about to rise from July 07, this means that the standard of living will gradually increase( despite the fact that money is being given to " subsidise" and help people) We have to acknowledge the fact that the standard of living is rising. To be able to get the birthrate going, we definitely need to give support to all. Not just the temporary benefits of those who give birth to children for like 3 yrs?( i aint very sure bout this point) Well, i hope that we do not need to rely too much on " importing" foreign talent to help to counter balance this problem we are currently facing in our society.

Create your own Friend Test here

We all know that Mcdonald's have started their 24 hrs restaurants not just in Singapore, but in other parts of the world. Well, providing 24 hrs service is not exactly something bad, especially in Singapore, where there PRACTICALLY ain't any fast food restaurants carrying on with their business round the clock. Yet, have they seen the potential problems of having 24 hrs service?
Well now we have terms called " McRefugees" and " McGamers". Simply. What are they? Are they just some neoteric terms used to name some funny people? Not quite. We see that these people have started to invade the territories of these 24 hrs outlets, mainly for the sake of seeking a place to rest or perhaps, a place where portable gamers gather. Well, with new technology like bluetooth integrated into portable devices, using of the internet is certainly an ease to one. Will the business of such places be affected?
The latest news state that carbon caps that have been put into placed for countries to abide have not been made successful to China, as they see this as a problem to their fast pacing economy. Well with carbon emissions caps put into place, this certainly helps to reduce the rate in which carbon is being emitted into the air. Yet, with countries like China abandoning the carbon caps, will the world face a rapid crisis in perhaps.. 10 years? 20 years? 50 years? No one knows. Its the efforts of all that counts, yet economic benefits have indeed caused many countries to ignore the fact that such emissions would cause an impending danger. Every single country counts. Will China change its policies to slow down the rate of global warming? Its an answer everyone wants to know.

finally my own BLOGSKIN!

Oh damn i spent 3 hrs to make this blog. should have started my revision for maths! To those 4-6 people who have their blog not linked, pleases message me! Good luck for those having mid years and.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to =)!

27th april

Had chinese prelim 2 this morning. oh well. my first attempt on doing qn 4. will my format be correct? I hope.

Chinese paper 2 was relatively easy, like what the others said, i feel that those with strong command of chinese will be able to score since there was like plenty of time to do the paper? i had like urms 30 of checking time for the paper. Even so, i think i aint gonna do very well.

Then i went for table tennis after maths lesson. Me and Nich played for like, lets see.. 3hrs? ok then we missed the bus to nygh-.- In the end we had to go on our own after waiting for yi ming. The debates were really great, despite the fact that we lost by a marginal score. Well. Was it the final link that they really missed out on that caused them to be defeated? I doubt so. All of us agreed that the CH debators did great, you people put on a great fight. GREAT JOB GUYS!

I know that it was abit tough for them to accept the results since it was rather.. not what they presumed it to be? well. i guess its a setback, but just carry on with whatever you people have been doing.. YOU WILL SUCCEED.


28th April

Had a headache after listening to S.H.E 中国话。 Compliments to the song though. I found it very meaningful, yet perhaps its the rapping kinda drove me nutz.HAHA. buti'll buy the album once it's released in May 11. Anyway, maths prelim is on the way and i'm still not prepared. Just don't know what to start from-.-
Anyway The Song:

S.H.E 中国话

扁担宽板凳长
扁担想绑在板凳上
扁担宽板凳长
扁担想绑在板凳上
伦敦玛莉莲买了件旗袍送妈妈
莫斯科的夫司基爱上牛肉面疙瘩
各种颜色的皮肤各种颜色的头发
嘴里念的说的开始流行中国话
多少年我们苦练英文发音和文法
这几年换他们卷著舌头学平上去入的变化
平平仄仄平平仄(仄仄平平仄仄平)
好聪明的中国人好优美的中国话
扁担宽板凳长
扁担想绑在板凳上
板凳不让扁担绑在板凳上
扁担偏要绑在板凳上
板凳偏偏不让扁担绑在那板凳上
到底扁担宽还是板凳长
哥哥弟弟坡前坐
坡上卧著一只鹅
坡下流著一条河
哥哥说宽宽的河
弟弟说白白的鹅
鹅要过河河要渡鹅
不知是那鹅过河
还是河渡鹅
全世界都在学中国话
孔夫子的话越来越国际化
全世界都在讲中国话
我们说的话让世界都认真听话
纽约苏珊娜开了间禅风lounge bar
柏林来的沃夫冈拿胡琴配著电吉他
各种颜色的皮肤各种颜色的头发
嘴里念的说的开始流行中国话
多少年我们苦练英文发音和文法
这几年换他们卷著舌头学平上去入的变化
平平仄仄平平仄(仄仄平平仄仄平)
好聪明的中国人好优美的中国话
有个小孩叫信
上街打醋又买布
买了布打了醋
回头看见鹰抓兔
放下布搁下醋
上前去追鹰和兔
飞了鹰跑了兔
洒了醋湿了布
嘴说腿腿说嘴
嘴说腿爱跑腿
腿说嘴爱卖嘴
光动嘴不动腿
光动腿不动嘴
不如不长腿和嘴
到底是那嘴说腿还是腿说嘴
全世界都在学中国话
孔夫子的话越来越国际化
全世界都在讲中国话
我们说的话让世界都认真听话
全世界都在学中国话
孔夫子的话越来越国际化
全世界都在讲中国话
我们说的话让世界都认真听话

countdown: 30 days to 'O' Level chinese.

Save the earth! Or we're not gonna live past 70.
People, decide your fate.

And there it is. The end of CHMA auditions. well there are alot of participants who joined this year but i guess only some are really good. That excludes me.LOL. well. Cedric said yesterday" You joker." well. i cant sing for nutz but i joined for the sake of enjoying my last year in cat high=) And well, i realised that the bands are not really fantastic because of the vocalists of the groups, group vocalists not stable, instumental( not sure) ,soloist a few passable ones and a couple of really good ones. Lol. I will not say anything before the results are out in case those that i comment enter/ get kicked out of the finals. Just hope that the finals will be a good one=) I'll be waiting 070707.

well setting aside CHMA, the chinese prelims 2 is NEXT WEEK. and gosh i havent prepared for it.Maths is on the following week and all of us are expected to score an a1. gosh. i guess i need to put in more effort. count down to 280507! 'O' levels chinese HERE I COME!

HAPPY 16th BDAE TO ME!

oh well may not be a real bdae afterall. How unlucky can one get, falling sick on his birthday. I bet many people are out there thinking that i pon class for celebration. Sighs.

Well i'm surprised that so many old friends still remembered my birthday which is like wow. just hope that i get more sleep and better grades and i will be just glad bout it. i dunnit any other presents i just want my 6.

Just heard that the Chinese Orchestra has clinced the Gold with honours, well done guys! WE'R PROUD OF YOU. Band's gonna be next. Then it's the choir. May all CCA groups clinch the gwk and may we be blessed with 1 DAY of school break(hehe). I know yi hui's feeling the tension right now cause she has to perform tomorrow. well i'll spurr you on! GWH for you people as well=))

Tomorrow's back to the normal school routine, so i better turn in early. -Signs off-

I finally had enuf slp since like 2 mths? Oh well.

Went to Giant Tampines today and it somehow disappointed me..(kinda small as compared to what i thought) As usual, Singaporean's craze over new shopping malls because they are deprived? Maybe not deprived, let's say kiasu? The" I MUST KNOW EVERYTHING BECAAUSE I'M A SINGAPOREAN LEH!" kind of attitude? oh nevermind, since i went as well=xx The bakery was the only think i think i was interested in since i didn't get what i wanted. Shopped for like 45 minutes? Then i waited for like 20 minutes to have my stuff billed.
There was this young little girl in front of me(with her family of cause) who was sitting in the trolley who kept hitting her maid. She's like only k1 k2? Then her maid was threatening her: If you don't stop i get the kor kor behind to catch you. The this girl looked into my eyes as if she was gonna eat me up. To my surprise in within seconds, her eyes started to turn red and she was like "Dont wann! I scared.." i was like DOTS? Do i scare children? This poor little girl almost cried so i kind of looked away despite the fact that she keep looking at me. Somehow i felt like laughing but i din't cause her parents were there=x

I feel kind of sick now. I don't wanna miss lessons though. Well should end it short so i can catch more sleep.=)

I'M BACK=) oh well. i blogged for two days in a row. Today's kinda nice cax apparantly the sec fours have stepped down.. 3 years of hardwork and 3 years of service 3 years of effort. It's over. Well you can say that everyone have been waiting for this day to happen(due to the 3 prelims tight schedule which is squeezing e juices out of our brainz) but we all know our heart still lies with student leadership. Once a sl, Always one. Well the new batch has somehow had their leaders being elected despite the fact that their actual positions were not being told... 4 great leaders. well done guys. strive hard and aim for the best^^

furthermore, the sec 2s have been all been promoted to prefects status. they finaaly received their full prefect batch and i guess they can't wait for their pb shirts to arrive. been quite a while since the prefects got their shirt but all of them shld have one in their entire 4 yrs at least. well it may be a load off our shoulders.

CCA pops are probably today as well cax several ccas are celebrating for their seniors. oh well. more like the sec 3s celebrating over their promotion and the the sec4s celebrating over the very fact that they have been "ceased" from their current duties. everyone will love this day where all the sec 4s can finally set their directions right and aim for their straight 1s. CHS sec 4s JIAYOU!

ok i'm finally back to blogging after upgrading my skin=) 3 mths since i blogged cax somehow blogger gave me some problems this couple of weeks so i didnt really feel like blogging. well nevermind. its over. well will blogg more often now(if i can spare the time).

i didnt really do well this term despite the fact that i kind of studied for all subjects. well. at least there's improvement=) tomorrow's a better day=) ^^

6 days of fun peace n joy is over!

This trip to guangzhou is realli sad - > nice -> fantastic.

well.

DAY 1:

Left for airport at 5+. Thought we were early, in the end it was john's family who was earlier. haha.
then left for the plane. WE thought we were early cax it was just 6.50pm. in e end i realised we were uber late. haha. ended up we had to sit at e back cax its TIGER AIR. but wasn't that bad as i thought( at least it was better than e " AIRLINE " i took to beijing before. Reached e airport at bout 11+ n came out at bout 12. Took the van to e hotel n it took close to 1 whole hr. reached e hotel n checked in. was a nice hotel but its lobby's under maintainance. BOO. after checking in we went for supper. APPARANTLY, we were wrong. we thought guangzhou would have night life like hong kong. Thats totally wrong. Their lives like s'poreans. Night life ends at 10+.;( Had to resort to eating at the Macs below e hotel. I LOVE E GRILLED CHICKEN BURGER. if s'pore has it it will be good. Then we had tea n stuff n went back to hotel. imagine a room squeezed by 4 person. i practically can't slp cax they were practically disturbed me thruout.Then Noah passed me a note saying he found it on the floor. It was jibberish though. " I stayed in this room just before you. I was murdered by someone in this room and my head is being hidden under the bed. Please do not sleep on this bed or else i'll haunt you." Well. ehh. I threw e note onto the floor cax i remember of those stories of people in the hotel rooms. Then i realised its written by John( as i expected ) and i returned it to him. Asked him to stuff his head under the bed so that i cld squash it. hehe. Then he continued to bug me to play chinese chess wif him and apparantly i wasnt going to. only managed to sleep at bout 5.


Day 2:

Woke up pretty late. Went to the restaurant at e hotel n seriously I LOVE THE TEMPERATURE THERE. 10+ degrees. nice. then we had dim sum and it took VERY long to serve. wasted quite a lot of time for lunch and the driver came to pick us up to go to Tianhe Guang Chang. all high class goods and there is none that i liked. Till we went to level 7 of the shopping mall that i found a pair of shoes i liked. Its very light n i think it weighed lesser than 100g surely. But the cost was high n told my parents i wld buy elsewhere. and i never saw that pair of shoes again. sighs. left the mall without buying anything and i was sure pissed.

waited for the driver n he drove us to shangxiabuluxingjie. pedestrian street they call it and it was pretty vibrant.went to those small shops n they sold nothing but girls stuff. went up that mall and it was worst. ALL GIRLS STUFF. clothes shoes n stuff. i cldnt even find my sports stuff. had no choice n went down to walk anrd. the streets were nice but i cldnt find the stuff i wanted. was pretty disappointed cax they didnt sell any sports stuff!!
went up to this mall again and realised its again a disappointment. man at that point i hated this holiday. I HATED IT. nothing i wanted. and the shopping mall was a failure. man. til we walked till the end n i realised that i cldnt find anything still. imagine how pissed n fed up i was. i just hope i cld just leave this state. went back down to the streets n still i found nothing of my taste.
continued walking till e end of the other street n i gt nuthing. Nothing still. Went back for dinner and we walked down the streets below e hotel( supposingly a famous street for things ) n i still gt nothing. i cant believe how i managed to survive that day. Only managed to get something at the end of the street. Bought my blazer pants n a pair of jeans. well. was still pissed off. went back and watched some soccer matches.

Day 3:
We went off the hotel pretty late again. this time towards the theme park. reached there and decided to go into the safari part of the park first.Chimelong Zoo. Apparantly being graded as one of the must go place when you visit Guangzhou. paid a hefty entrance price. and we went for this safari ride. nice i shld sae. n there was this giraffe following us. WALKING ON THE ROAD! haha. then we went on to look at the monkeys. realli nice cax some of the species is nt available in our local zoo. i loved the monkey that was dancing wif the music. SO CUTE!!! it was shaking its head like it had drugs. NUTZ! haha. then we went to other parts and i realised there were parts where the monkeys are really huge. then we went towards the panda n tiger areas. THAT WAS THE NICEST PART OF THE ZOO. we went there to practically play around with the tiger. Snow Tiger to be exact. John's dad disturbed it and tried to run away so as to see its reaction. The tiger ran and pounced on the glass. IMAGINE THE GLASS broke i won't be here now. man. it was pretty scary cax e tiger whacked the glass hard. well. it was nice though. Then had lunch before we proceed towards the theme park. while walking towards the exit i saw this along the way. " TWINS love the koalas!" OMG. TWINS are the ones that "adopted" the koalas. NICE!!!!
TWINS TWINS TWINS. haha. well while having breakfast i passed by this shop where i realised people like xie ting feng and CHARLENE CHOI gt their hair cut. its twins^2.waited for this shuttle bus that goes to the theme park and john had chess wif my bro. went to the theme park and one thing caught my attention. MAXIMUM HEIGHT FOR RIDES: 190CM. phew. sorry martin if you are reading my blog but i think u may nt be allowed in the rides=x. then went in and rushed towards the 10 INVERSION ROLLER COASTER. The roller coaster notice board states: Ride on and hear one's orgasmic screams. =.= I apparantly proved it wornd cax i didnt even scream at all=) HAHA. but this roller coaster is nice. its in the guiness books of records for roller coaster wif the most number of inversions. haha. well went to the Motorbike Launch Coaster next. u bend down like you are sitting in a motorbike and it goes for a roller coaster ride. was realli cool cax it was so nice wif the air blowing across your hair. then we went to take the family travel coaster with joseph cax he was crying. well the ride was nice cax we reached the top of the ride. My bro and noah didnt even moved cax they didnt know how to operate it. Wanted to take the "spaceshot"ride and realised it was closed for maintainance-.- so that was about it for the screaming zone and we headed down to the Happy kingdom and realised everything was not of any thrill. then we went down to try some rides and realised the Happy Water World was gonna make us super wet. so we cldnt go cax we wld be wet during the circus show. Then we went for the Half pipe ride. i shld sae its the best ride of all. Its like a U-shaped roller coaster n it goes all the way to the height of a 6 story height. and this rides keep roating and you will never know where you gonna head down from. haha. then went for the twister coaster. AND I WANNA SAY I HATE THE RIDE. cax i gt motion sickness and stuff cant take 360 degrees rides but i went cax i thought they will only go 360 degrees for 4 times. Cax there werent any people the guy keep asking us whether we wanna go on somemore and noah said yes all the way. he spun us for 13 rounds i felt better off if i was thrown onto the ground at once. 360 DEGREES FOR 13 ROUNDS. WTF. i was spinning when i was on the ground and certainly had to rest. then we ended up at the white tiger street taking photos and went for bumper car. Circus show was about to start so we went for the show shortly.

The circus show was world class. And really entertaining. i pitied the guy who was forced up on stage and was pushed down the diving board. imagine it was me. wth. i wld just go mad. and seriously their skills were gd. world class show. 5-stars!

Day 4:
We went to visit some places of interest and i enjoyed it. Except that the places are minor scale as compared to the ones i saw at guangzhou i think it was ok. we cut it short to just 1/2 day so we went to the famous mouse street to get stuff. really busy street and full of stuff. Teenagers flocking the place and there were all kinds of people. The girls who dressed like anime characters recieved most glances. haha. i realised that s'pore is really lacking out in trend.
then we went to mouse street and bought stuff. again i thought i could get my things but i didint. only went to this shop and bought my sunglasses. The salesgirls didnt believed i was 15 though. haha. then we went off for food at mu mi zhou and met up wif auntie Constance. the food was real nice except that i didnt like seafood. bleahhs. John was crazy cax he dropped 25 drops of wasabi oil on his soup and it certainly tortured him. haha. then we went up to Baiyun Mountain for sightseeing and it was really nice. Nice view and good place to have fun. Then we went to this Charmaine Street where we had a walk around the river side. really nice having such a weather and i saw a pair of students there tou qing =x Then we headed down to this dessert shop and had famous desserts. I loved the guiling gao! we ended the meal late and went back to the hotel at about 11+. We told the driver to pick us up later the next day so that he cld have his slp as well=)

Day 5:
We went off at about 12 and headed to mouse street again. well. this time round we went to the sports guangchang first. Finally saw jerseys and its realli my life. But the price was a bit high so we ignored. Went to several shops and my bro gt his sweater and his table tennis bat. hahx. we gt it at 85 yuan and the next store gave a price of 156 yuan. THATS TOTAL CON! then we headed down to a street ahead and guess wad. GUESS WAD. I SAW A MUSIC CD SHOP. its like an oasis in a desert. i loved that shop. bought cds like nutx cax they were cheap. real cheap compared to local and best of all its all original. gt Eason's concert DVD, Eason's latest album, Evan's album, Vincy's album,Jin Sha's album, 183 club's album, Elva Hsiao's album. AND. AND. AND!!! TWINS Ho Hoo Tan Latest album!!!! THE ALBUM WAS RELEASED ON FRIDAY AND I WAS THERE ON MONDAY!!!! FORTUNATE ME! TWINS!! e total bill came up to just S$** . relli a good price and i cant get it aniwhr.man. i was practically HIGH. loved that day so much and my impression gradually changed. then went to this shop to get my windbreaker and again the price rawks. hehe. then went back to the sunglasses shop cax my mum and bro wanted to get theirs as well and they said my bro was cute. and again hey were saying they cant belief i'm 15. they thought i didnt understad cax they spoke in teochew. haha. Actually they were quite gd at languages also. they spoke chinese, cantonese, teochew. hmm i dun think i can speak 3 langs but i understand 4! haha.

then we went for dinner wif aunty constance again and we had steamboat again. My bro was lost in that place cax he was busy playing his gba and had to go find him. made us so worried cax we were in foreign land-.-

Day 6:
Went to bao shi jie and gt the states famous cookies and pastries. All tasted just ...(feel in your blanks yourself) Then we walked down the streets to buy some stuff and FINALLY. I GT MY JERSEY. bought 3 jerseys for myself and the looked pretty cool. definitely e price tag wasnt a problem - 39 yuan-45 yuan per piece. and the material is like uber good. where can i get this kind of price in s'pore?

then we headed down to yidelu to get some dried seafood and toys from this warehouse. e price was pretty good and i gt some stuff for the EXCOS and some of my friends. ( I give it to selected people;)) the price didint come cheap so i hope everyone can treasure it.
then we went off for our last meal in guangzhou before we left this city. Hmm. went to get my billard stick and seriously it was a good bargain - you cant get this kind of price in queensway- then we left for the airport. BYE GUANGZHOU!

Really loved e trip in a whole. I love my albums especially my TWINS one! i think we ate alot of goose in all like 5~6 cax it was cheaper than chicken.LOL. and something interesting. people keep asking me whether i'm a korean. DO WE LOOK LIKE KOREANS? haha.

gotta slp n prepare for camp. BYE!

PS: Buy Twins Ho Hoo Tan Album=)

backk.

whew.

how many daes more to e end of sch holidaes-.- this holidae doesnt seem like one at all . fancy spending 1/2 my holidaes on sl n cca stuff. i'm left wif half.30 % to holidae hwk. 10% to revision. 10% of sports. I'VE GT NO FREE TIME.this sux big time. well, ppl rmb this. DUN TRY PAINTING UNLESS U ARE RELLI PREPARED FOR IT. i mean it. 1/2 dead painting my hs. painters job isnt easy ok, give them credit! its in all the trades i mean. ppl get wad they want based on hardwork.

countdown 12 weeks to prelims 1. i bet i'm onli 0.0 prepared. haiz. will i get wad i wann?
tough.
n i wld like to wish e couple all e best n dun get sabotaged by e crapper again. 对对方的信任与对感情的真诚根重要！加油！！

将是用华语来表达我说的。我突然对“爱得太迟。世界上面，一定有一个人，会有你专一DNA. 原上，你他，他他，她你，她他，互通互信，但是只能在原上。因为踏前一步，缘后是个无底大洞。" 感触良多。不知是否有在世胡思乱想。我自认我对爱情故事的内容热爱，是否有在幻想我是在里头的男主角呢？有是否是在我生命的过程中又掀起了新的开始？人是否就应该这样？

我想问的问题实在太多。一些事情就算是你也不能够回答。我只想寻找我想要的答案。

送给大家这首歌： 陈慧珊 ： 我不爱你 -view in ie-

heys all. URMS.
ok. many will just ask. WHRS UR BLOGGING SPIRIT? lol.
joke.
September 12: Last post.
I GUESS NOBODY WILL care to come here again.
nvm.

well. suddenly thought of coming to blog.urms. just alot of things to sae. Firstly: HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO ALL. ok well. its nt really a holiday to me yet. First week is occupied with like extra lessons every day? well. blame it on e fact i am dumb. hoho. seriously i dunnoe whether i'll remain in my current class next yr but nvm. like i'm feeling so weird now. Do i belong to this class at all? MAYBE nt. Somehow i feel that there is this barrier, probably psychological barrier between me and my class. I just feel i'm not up to standard. darn. i hope it changes by next yr.

And with 2 weeks more before i declare my holiday, i would like to ask myself. HOW THE HELL AM I GONNA SCHEDULE MY HOLIDAY. this question is probably about management of time but urms.. if i'm gonna stick a timetable on my cardboard or something i would probably rip it off by the end of tomorrow.

I've got lots to catch up. LOADS. like i cant realli count. Like in terms of studies, i've lacked behind by miles. In terms of friendship i think i'm managing it worse than before. Urms. Relationships? maybe not much i guess. since i dunn realli have a relationship with anyone=) cept my family of course.

Reccently i just found out that i can get emotional. perhaps its cax of the dramas that i see. haha. i dun understand but yea. life can be a chore. A chore when it starts to lose its meaning. You watch thsi dramas and you see those actors/actresses cry when their relationship is severed. what bout us? theres this kind of bond between them( oh well i noe they are acting) but ya. life can be like that as well. dun you think we should start to think about how you can make your lives meaningful. Not make it seem meaningful. Whats meaningful to yourself is not really that important. But its the impact that you can make in others life. whether you make others life pleasant or unpleasant, its up to you. Cherish your life.

And people. treasure whatever you have. Dun just let any opportunity just slip by just like that. You have to incur a change, and nit sit there and expect a change. Life can be meaningful. I noe i was. pessimistic. change. Only when you change you know wads life like.

Perhaps just look around you. Theres a reason behind everything and theres always something you can learn from it.You can say that i'm just wasting my time here but yes. learn.

To all sec 4s, good luck for your exams!

=) i'm back! nt like before. gonna get this blogging spirit back!

i guess i'v changed. AGAIN. hahx.

been slacking for 3 terms. 3 terms of slacking, n u can see wad happened. results going down, everythings nt going according to what i wish.ok. perhaps this will stop. after e bio test i had todae. mann. i jux think i'm gonna fail it. i studied chap 8 onli!thats uh.. 7 chaps tat i didnt study? if i ever pass.. woohoo. i guess i'm jux lucky.

BUT ITS GONNA CHANGE!

i finally changed my seat! to e front. all those at e back to e front. haha. finally!!! i can assure tat i'll be able to pay more attention. nt like someone... who still slps even though he's placed in front =X. nvm. n i'm multi tasking now. hahx. lessons ended quite late.but but. i stayed back n studied!. i think tats e FIRST TIME i realli study in e SL room. everytime its jux digression n some chats. urms. nt jux me. martin was earlier than me la. he was there even before i went. n he's studying. terence too! e three of us gonna soar. HIGH. yea. realli high. i actualli finished my geog book? maths mass prac as well. hehe. i dun think i ever finished so much in sch before.

they were watching silent hill la. was ehh m18? nah, cant be bothered. i lov my maths.=))

i seriously think this change shld be able to transform me into ehh... ps: nt joel!(mugger= mugg^x whr x> infinite) hahx. but i think i'm gonna learn more.

msn had some probs yesterdae. n i guess nt jux me. e whole s'pore i suppose? i think its cax of IMF. haiz. i still thot its was my MSN prob AGAIN. was pretty pissed. n i have to resort to using windows messenger. thx to YIHUI!!! hahx. i noe so many ppl loved u!! ME TOO!! u saved my wife!! =D HAHHA. nvm.

countdown:23 daes more =)) WHEE!

Its been a while again. i haven been realli blogging. just feel like expressing myself here.probably i may start to blog daily from now on.

if u haven realised, many ppl have been dying. the shock came on last fridae that Hong Wei, asst classchairman of 1-1 passed away after a heart attack. i'm saddened by the fact tat someone, of such a young age, cld be sent to a land far far away. is life realli tat unpredictable? i didnt attend his funeral, was i being too selfish? why didn't i put aside my busy schedule for such an important thing? was i jus too heartless? he's my junior, and besides, i heard from my dm tat he's the one that alwaes admired me and wanted to become a prefect. WHY? why didn't i show up at his funeral. at least. tat was the least i cld do. my excos were there. why didnt i go? was i realli tat busy i cant take up some time out of my schedule? i dunnoe. i've been thinking this couple of days. was i being too selfish?

many people have been dying. first it was hong wei. then it was steve irwin. croc hunter. then it was this fuhua sec guy who died in an accident after battling his leukaemia. yesterdae newspaper reported, a ri guy died of no apparent reason. i wonder. i wonder. have i been lacing arnd? more and more people are dying. great people died. steve irwin, great man, great ambition. he died a cruel way. a stungray pierced thru his heart and caused his death almost instantly. e fuhua sec guy, he battled leukamia for bout a yr. his chances of living were abt 30%. he battled it thru. yet, he cldnt escape from e clutches of death as he was slammed down by a car. then, a ri guy died, cax his heartbeat suddenly stopped. seriously. wad is happening arnd now? i'm in a dilemma. why do people start dying one by one? perhaps. perhaps its a signal. deaths nt gonna be escapable. its either u die now or soon. i'm nt sure whether its a message. but i dun think its a gd one.

yesterdae louisa was afraid that she wld die soon. she was afraid she wld jux die e same way as e people who died in e span of this few days. either a cruel death, or a sudden death. i've no idea why. but i'm looking at death as a natural cause. if i'm supposed to die now. then i guess i will. i'm worried of e people arnd me. they jux have that kind of look on their faces: will i die now? everyone's worrying.

i guess the only way to make urself feel gd is to look at the brighter side of life. maybe. it wld help. i'm nt sure bout anithing. i've listening to much of e sad songs n stuff. i dun think i'm iin gd mood either.

perhaps life just goes on.

my greatest condolences to Hong wei, Steve Irwin.

ARGH!!! WHEN WAS E LAST TIME I BLOGGED?
1 MTH AGO?
OMGOSH.

sigh. a short holiday indeed. i guess i have only 1 week of holiday. wait wait. lemme count. i guess its like only 1 week or less of TRUE HOLIDAY. oh gosh. n i'm halfway done wif my work n stuff.

i jux loved SLC. MGStrikeback camp too. i guessed that the events i realli looked forward to n sure did enjoy. especially SLC.i shall further elaborate both events!!

MGStrikeback Camp:

Asked to arrive at 9, so we actually met in school at 8. but but BUT. adrian was late for like 20 minutes? wahhs. then we rushed to e busstop, then terence WAS E RED INDIAN CHIEF. argh. he said he walked thru e terrace hs b4 so h e wld figure out a way to e busstop. then well done. he made us walk ALL e way to RJC. well done. Then e bus uncle saw us running yet he refused to stop. GRRRR… In e end we were late for like wad? 30 MINUTES! THEN WHEN WE ARRIVED, it was like…Are we e earliest? Ohh.. I did ask e facil attached to our sch, it was like e first one said 9.30 then we were like. ARE WE EARLY? Oops. We weren’t. Last to arrive I supposed? Then is e usual games again. Then was e symposium whr I actually crapped quite a lot and of cax. My favourite Q n A sessions! Then there comes e more serious stuff. Some brainstorming of e performance item. Was pretty short. I think we didn’t even have a chance to discuss about it. Then the GAMES. SERIOUS GAMES. I gt wet first, then SOAPED. Real soaped. Arghh!!! Haha. THEN was waterbombs n stuff! I actually went so hard on someone I think I smashed e waterbomb on e gals face=xxxx I’m sorry. Wasn’t in purpose! Then gtta go change n stuff. Thenn… thenn… THE PERFORMANCE. ARGH. WE DIDN’T PREPARE. Haha. Thinking bout e way martin spoke haha. PERFECT SINGLISH. Then there was e performance by terences grp. Omg he acted as a gal. PINK CAP. A DRESS. Andrews worst. Haha. I shalln’t upload e video to avoid being killed! Then it was more or less e end. Sianns. Then was some mugg shot n stuff n we went home. Was a short day I guessed I enjoyed it though! Haha. Was actually expecting much more from it. SLC DUN Disappoint me!

SLC DAY 1:

We met kinda early. AFTER E EXPERIENCE of e MGStrikeback. Reached at 8 on e dot! But u noe, there mux be some schoolspirit. We waited for ryan. N he was late for ½ an hr! when I went up to register he was already in there wif his grp discussions n stuff. REAL INFURIATING. Well nvm. Then I went to grp f. uhh… was a very weird feeling. Very weird. Two guys chatting so much beside me n I dunn dare to start a convo. Dunnoe wads wrong wif my public speaking skills. Well…I was pretty quiet. Actually VERY QUIET. If I’m liddat in sch, then I guess I must be possessed or something? Arghh. Conventions jux dun show my true colours. HAHA. Then had some games arnd. N yes.

MY HEAD STAND. Haha. Blood gushing up my blood vessels towards my brain. Arghh. My whole face was red after that. Lol. Then yes. E system review. arghh. Wasn’t even told to prepare. Oh my. There goes my lunch! Haha. Dun really mind. But I gt like 4 packs of food from shu jean after that? Arrgghhh…. My presentation was e shortest of all! Ahha. I think ppl jux love e CH parliament. Haha. Then e most interesting thing of e day. FOOD RACE. ENJOYED IT. Crazy performances, running. And yes. WE SAW A GUY WEARING A 15 CM LONG PANTS. IT WAS LIKE u noe some small boys n stuff. I think we were laughing like crazy. Real crazy. I loved e race ( despite e hot tea that Tortured my taste buds). Haha. It was so memorable. I guess I’m hyped up. Hyped up for more. MORE.

SLC DAY 2.

We reached on time for e event. I think it was pretty nice way of capturing e leaders in e cohort. Hmm gtta think of something like this for our training camp=)). Then e Guided journey. Was made to do lots of stuff but its like.fun! REAL FUN. Haha. Then e lunch n then e teabreak. Was made to do reflections n comments n stuff. I really have to say this to the facils. YOU ALL ARE FANTASTIC. If weren’t for u all I dun think we’ve enjoyed that much. Thx for my caring Hui Chun facil, superr caring worr…. Are you hungry? Are you Thirsty? Are you ok? Are you sure? HAHA. Sooo nicee!! And yes. Peiling loves to laugh over small small things…. HAHA. She’s kinda quiet though. Oh yes. Last of all. CELESTIA. Haha. Wow factor in u. jux give me e thought tat ur dynamic. Hahaa. Well e giving of the certs then. hmm. Were missing fo certs fro mr BOSS MAN n uncle TAN. Haha. I loved e finale e most. Its like so nicee n stuff I dun think I’ll forget it. I loved it. Hmm. E last moments of slc. Its like. So sad… cry cry… many did that… while we went crazy! Haha. Cheering n stuff . nicee…though we didn’t get e best grp, I guess we know ourselves. WE ARE E BEST! Always! ITS SO SAD IT ENDED SO QUICKLY. Sigh. Alicia Denise Yuan Yuan, Joshua n pei ling didn’t join us for dinner… aww… we gtta keep in contact!!!! WE NEED TO.WITHOUT THEM I GUESS E GRPS NT GONNA BE THAT COMPLETE AFTER ALL. Lesser fun, lesser jokes, lesser joy. Then we went to amk central mos and made a lot of noise. NOISE. Haha. N we somehow joked arnd wif everything arnd us. Then there we are. MOS BURGER.=))) nicee… chatted bout quite a couple of stuff. N it was really enjoying. IF e law states that 11o clock curfew is only for those that are found loitering arnd OFTEN ENUF OR CREATING TROUBLE, we wld have stayed on e whole nite. It was so early that e whole thing ended. Aww… I miss everyone.

Two days after e slc, yet I’m still missing all. ALL. Everyone’s unique character. Everyone plays an IMPORTANT PART TO THE EVENT. Pls keep in contact. Once friends Always friends.

Michelle, Alicia, Xiu Yuan, Roslyn, Andrea, Pei Qi, Sean, Nicholas, Nithiya, Joshua, Randy, Sean, Denise. You all rawk my life.

Hui Chun, Pei Ling, Celestia. FACils I’ve dunnoe wad to say to u all. thx for everything.remember you ppl always.

RAWK ON!!!

LOVE ALL LOADS!!!

i guess this weeks a bad week.

on mondae i rushed my stats project like crazy, wif lots of screw ups by others. in the end i have to do everything myself. then on thurdae gt my report books. i'm damn demoralised. never expected such marks. i jux realised its nt easy to strike a balance. all my commitments jux tallies to no achievement at all. nt at all. disappointing results. then e ccas also screwed. n i'm getting probs from e other two heads cax they are nt very initiative at times n sad to sae, theres time tat effieciency level is quite low. i realli hate to sae this but, if they do not try to buck up their standard, i think there may be some reshuffling by e others and probably they will nt get respect. this is a problem i am trying to solve now n i hope that the other two will understand their problems as well and thus improve. i hope we will be able to improve after all.
then i guess todaes the most dumb dae i sae someone is getting crazier. fancy scolding me for something tat is nt entirely my fault? i shld sae i was nt to blame. there werent any sec 3 arnd so u expect me to finish something that is nt tat impt as my first priority. i'm jux fed up that the fact u didnt listen. if u're nt gonna listen to me even explain. i dun think i shld listen to u either. in this society, i feel that everyone has a chance to place their views. n when u try to scold me for something nt entirely my fault wad do u expect. i'm like one of the onli ones in sch todae. n u want ur "very impt" thing done?no way.take this chance to scold me cax u are pissed? i rather u go use ur head to bang the wall.oh hold on. probably do something more uselful. like let sae.... jux disintigrate. dun be a load to others. when ure pissed, whenever u wanna talk, u gtta at least think. wad u sae will be wad ur future be like. somehow i lost my respect for u. i guess i'm thinking of booking a "one way" ticket to imh or jux rite in n complain. i'm certainly nt happy bout this. todaes sharon last dae aniwae. WISH U ALL E BEST! hmm. nice person. glad knowing u=) i'm jux amused to e fact tat whenever ppl wanna take photo wif u u jux sae ur hairs messy. lol. hahx. alvins sad now i guess. last chnce he will see her. hmm. i think i'm gonna miss her.


Sometimes, nt till u lose it do u feel precious bout it. treasure life experiences. They are part n parcel of life.

jux ended cca like 3 hrs ago. i cant believe i actualli stayed for so long though i waited so hard for e key to arrive. ARRIVE cax i thought they went out for lunch. realised they left. ps me. wadeva. i love e world of my own. so after w8ting for 40 mins i went to take e key. sigh. this is so boring. e darn robot jux crazks my brain. then after 4 hrs by myself jun fa came. then of cax he did e programming then i slack. hahax. in the end he left like 1/2 hr b4 me. n i realised something. I WAS E ONLI ONE IN SCH AT TAT TIME. well that happened quite a lot of times liao

then went makan then home for STATS project. i jux realised e deadline is todae so i rushed during cca also.:) now my parts done. nothing more liao. jux worrying wad will happen to my ss, el and chem paper tomoro. i hate red. RED IS BAD FOR UR EYES CAX U GET SORE EYES. i'm telling myself i wun get one. sigh. el was bad. ss was ok. chem was bad. i dunnoe anything else. i gtta keep calm for tomoro. n yes since i'm gonna miss my sec 3 camp i will chiong for cca.
n i mean it. e 1000 cash mux be mine.

With e restarting of my blogging habit, i seriously utilise this to e fullest. e tests are over, the daes are back... i'm gonna think i gonna change my attitude. everythings changed, yet i'v nt changed myself to prepare for it. there we see moments in our life that cease the thoughts of living on. there we see another moment we should live upon for. why is life such an amazing theory. is there a perfect and whole new theory to life? before life is about the whole thing of enjoyment, how do we enjoy. wads it now. its jux bits and pieces of things that we see as chunks of useless theory that will nt put in much value on e life we alwaes wanted to enjoy. has e purpose of life changed?

we have see more people out there trying their very best to live life to e fullest. making their life meaningful. teens are nt robots, thus nt supposed to be manipulated by e many souls that trying to divulge our freedom. we see in life that the moment we enjoy are often seen by others as a wastage of time or jux being childish. whenever we walk pass e playground, it somehow jux brings about e thoughts of our childhood, one most will often rmb bout. why cant teenage be the same. has stress become a moment that somehow destroys e happiness of our teenagehood. will adulthood be worst? i realli think the moments of life should be cherished whenever we can.

i hope this forestart gives mie a new moment in life. a concurrent thing to keep me moving.